Magicbabydust
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I am 17 weeks pregnant and have been fighting with my doctors to get a c section. I have a chiari malformation which I had to have surgery on when I was 4 because i had become paralyzed and was slowly dieing. Ive had two miscarriages and had to take clomid to get pregnant because my body refused to ovulate. I had decided on c section for both my physical and mental health and now my doctors are saying I dont need a c section and it would be elective but they dont want to do it. If it is elective I dont think medicaid will cover it(i live in Ga). my family and I are extremely upset/scared. We know the stress and pressure of labor and pushing will cause chiari problems and with what I have been through I absolutely refuse to have a vaginal labor. I have been abused sexually before and the thought of pushing this baby out feels like some sort of rape. I will not be able to bond with my baby(just thinking about it makes me angry and upset). I dont sleep well and have gotten so upset ive started throwing up from fear. Please someone help me come up with something, some way for the doctors to see I need the c section. Ive thought about refusing to push when I go into labor but I dont know if that would work. Please someone help me. Im so stressed(my whole family is). Ive considered termination because of this but we do want this baby, just not at the expense of my life. I have a doctors appt at the end of next month. Someone please help me find a way. We have been praying every day. Its all I think about now and I pray all the time.