The scent of coffee fills my nostrils,
The same way that music jumps into my ears,
My mind,
Telling words I cannot articulate,
Songs telling other peoples lives,
Translate into mine,
And I swim,
In a sea of crotchets and quavers,
Music and lyrics,
Wishing one day to be creating it,
Throwing the rope to the girl in my place,
She is drowning,
But music seems to save her,
It rules her life,
People tell her to grow up,
To remove the headphones now weilded to her ears,
But she doesn't care,
Because it's there,
Always,
Music a tissue willing to accept her sorrow,
You can tell a lot about someone from the contents of their iPod,
At first glance hers is that of a happy girl,
But look deeper,
Look to the many songs that reference self harm,
Brush it off?
You say she's happy,
There's no need to worry,
Because according to you there's no way she's be that girl,
Rocking rythmically,
As she carves,
Failure,
Into her thigh with a blade,
No,
Of course not,
She's smart,
She knows better,
Doesn't she?
She just wishes you'd care,
Take enough intrest to wonder,
When did she last eat?
why does she never show her 'perfect' limbs anymore?
The clues are there,
But you can't see,
Can you?
She told you food scares her,
But you laughed it off,
Surely she should be the naive one,
At 16,
She shouldn't have seen what she has,
She knows great pain,
Others cannot begin to imagine,
She isn't loved,
So
She makes her own safety net,
Knits together,
Music,
And razorblades,
Just
To
Survive.