My OH says it's not about the money, or school, or a house, it's all about him not feeling ready to be a father. I can't use hormonal contraceptives, and I have a slight allergy to copper so no IUD. This leaves condoms and methods using spermicides. I get horrible UTIs from every spermicide I've ever tried, including one my doctor prescribed me that was really expensive and supposedly irritant-free. That leaves condoms.
Now I'm all for getting pregnant ASAP. I want a baby now. My OH is the one that is all about waiting and not saying how long we should wait for, just a vague window of 3-5 years from now. I do have a dislike of condoms. General discomfort, etc. For years I just sucked it up and pretended like it didn't matter. Then I met my OH. He hates condoms. With a passion. I was on birth control so it didn't matter as far as pregnancy goes so we didn't use condoms for the longest time. When I had to stop taking the pill, he didn't want to go back to using condoms. He whined and complained and whined some more. So my doctor came up with the idea of not using condoms, but instead using natural family planning/fertility awareness and the pull out method. We watched several instructional videos (cheesy music and all) and read pamphlets and got a thermometer and everything. I've got the fertility awareness part down, and I keep him informed. The thing is, he doesn't always pull out. At the beginning of my cycle, after AF stops, he won't pull out, but as it gets closer to the time I usually ovulate, he'll pull out for a couple days, but then go back to not doing it when he feels like it, not when my chart says I've ovulated. One cycle he didn't pull out until two days before I ovulated. The next cycle he was more careful for a while, but he stopped pulling out THE DAY I OVULATED. So unlike many of you WTT girls, there IS a chance of me getting pregnant each cycle because he doesn't keep up his end of the bargain. And it's not because he can't help it. I've asked him. He says things like, "Oh well I figured we were safe," or "well I figured the chances of you getting pregnant aren't that high anyway because of the infertility on your mom's side" (OWCH! Thanks for the reminder, kind sir!) It's been four cycles, and he's so far lucked out each time.
Don't you think it's unfair of him to insist he doesn't want to TTC when he's not keeping up his end of the method and we're having unprotected sex?