Hi I am new here. I have been reading your and they have been a good support to me. I lost my precious baby 5 weeks ago at 21 weeks. I was not prepared for the enormous amount of grief which I would be going through and my world has been shattered since then. I have been going through all kinds of emotion including sadness, guilt, shame, confusions and anger. Not a day has gone by without me crying bitterly. I miss my baby so much. I wonder if we made all the right decisions, and what if the baby didnt have to die
I have not been able to do much around the house. I was very weak physically and had some infections post delivery, and now 5 weeks later, though I have regain some strengths physically, I am still overwhelmed with sadness and not able to get back to the normal routine.
During this whole time my husband has been very supportive. He has to go to work and does all the chords in the house and keeps us going. I am trying to get back to normal by running small errands this week but it has been hard. I feel tired and sad. I feel I cannot face the world. When I need to cry, I usually cry alone. I dont want to impose or compound my sadness on others. However, last night, for some reasons I couldnt hold it back and I burst in to tears in front of my husband and son. I told my husband I feel so broken and empty. He told me as much as it hurts, we need to move on. The baby would not want to see us living this way. He was frustrated that I continue to live like as if I was dead. I know he is right But life is so hard and my heart aches I cannot pick myself up. I feel like I am leaving the baby behind.
How long did it take for you to move through the grieving process? Am I normal to be like this? I am afraid I will never be the same as I used to be. I know my husband loves the baby dearly, but he seems to be moving through this process faster than me. How to you manage that? We are already hurting so much from losing the baby. I dont want to hurt our relationship even more.
During this whole time my husband has been very supportive. He has to go to work and does all the chords in the house and keeps us going. I am trying to get back to normal by running small errands this week but it has been hard. I feel tired and sad. I feel I cannot face the world. When I need to cry, I usually cry alone. I dont want to impose or compound my sadness on others. However, last night, for some reasons I couldnt hold it back and I burst in to tears in front of my husband and son. I told my husband I feel so broken and empty. He told me as much as it hurts, we need to move on. The baby would not want to see us living this way. He was frustrated that I continue to live like as if I was dead. I know he is right But life is so hard and my heart aches I cannot pick myself up. I feel like I am leaving the baby behind.
How long did it take for you to move through the grieving process? Am I normal to be like this? I am afraid I will never be the same as I used to be. I know my husband loves the baby dearly, but he seems to be moving through this process faster than me. How to you manage that? We are already hurting so much from losing the baby. I dont want to hurt our relationship even more.