Not sure I should be posting here?

[torch2010]

Hello. I am Torch, I have 3 children. DD1 is 9, DD2 is 16 months and our little boy should be nearly three now but he was stillborn in January 2010 at 25+5 weeks.

I am currently nearly 16 weeks pregnant with our 2nd rainbow baby. That's why I am not sure if I should post here, as we already have our rainbow baby?

I am scared, terrified. I cry every day at the thought of losing my baby. I convince myself that every twinge, every day I feel off, every time my boobs no longer hurt I convince myself that things have gone wrong.
Our first rainbow was conceived using clomid and this time we were preparing to start another round when it happened naturally and it was a huge shock. So I kind of feel like it's too good to be true and will be snatched away.

I don't think I was this scared last time. Maybe as it's coming up to our little boys birthday my hormones are extra crazy?

I have my 16 week midwife appointment on Wednesday where we should hear the heartbeat but I am just terrified something is wrong. I am close to tears just writing this. Is this normal or is there something wrong with me?

 

[Bubsta]

Of course you can post here. xxx
Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry you had to go through losing your LO, and having to feel these fears. It's completely understandable to feel the way you are. I think all of us would be the same in your shoes.
What happened with your son was not the norm. If you look at the amount of successful pregnancies and births verses stillborn, in the scheme of things, its rare. Your two beautiful living daughters prove this. This is a new pregnancy and a new baby. If your OB is concerned then I'm sure you are being closely monitored. If the OB isn't concerned, then you need to listen to him as he knows your history. I'm sure your scan on Wednesday will just be perfect. Pregnancy hormones are going to make your fears and emotions much more heightened. Talk to your MW/OB about how you are feeling and hopefully they can try and eliviate your concerns.

I'm thinking of you Torch, and really hope you can start to feel better about this pregnancy soon. Let us know how your scan goes on Wednesday. I'm sure everything will be just fine and you'll see your LO bouncing around in there. This is your time now Hun. Xxx

 

[hokiemom]

I'm so sorry for what you have been through. I'm just over 6 weeks and I'm terrified as well. I don't go for my first appt. until the 15th so I have a while left to have my nerves get the best of me. I don't really have any advice, but just wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you and hoping for the best appt. ever.