When I stopped ovulating earlier this year, I was really slow about getting in to see my OB/Gyn, and even slower to get a full infertility work-up. I did the basic Provera and CD3 BW, but then disappeared from the doctor's office for months. For a couple months, I toyed with the idea of just giving up. I thought about adoption. I thought about just giving up on kids altogether. I felt so powerless, tired, frustrated, that it just seemed easier to walk away from it. I took a couple months ignoring all the problems and pretending it didn't bother me. I said I was "waiting for my body to sort itself out", saying that if I just waited everything would be fine. I really started questioning if I was wanting a child for the "right reasons" or if I was just trying to make my life less boring, feel more loved, fill some voide, etc, etc, etc.
Finally one day I had a bit of a breakdown, brought on by a 3 daym 4 night babysitting of a friend's 3 month old. Holding that little baby, taking care of him, feeding him, rocking him, watching him while he slept- I realized I DID want a baby. More than anything. I did want to get all the testing done, I was just afraid to do it. It seemed so overwhelming. I felt so hopeless. I finally let myself feel overwhelmed and powerless and really let myself acknowledge how frustrating and scary everything was. And I finally realized all those feeling are totally okay. Real "Serenity Prayer" kind of moment. I called up my OB/Gyn and scheduled an appt for the next day.
I finally got all the testing and bw done. Went through the u/s, the HSG, my DH had his follow-up SA done (we had had one done right before I stopped O'ing). I got onto Clomid. I set up an appt with an actual RE (all the monitoring they do allows me to feel a little more "in control" by having a better idea of what's going on). We heard all of our options and decided on doing an IUI. Yes, it ups our chances of conceiving, but the real reason we decided on it was so that our sex life could be about US again, not baby-making. All the BD'ing had taken a toll on our relationship and my husband and I were becoming distant.
Ever since we decided on the IUI a few weeks ago, our sex life is SO much better, my husband and I are both much happier with each other, and his sex drive has come back. I guess you could say we've compartmentalized our TTC efforts and we are keeping it away from our relationship. As for my own personal feeling about everything- well, it's still totally overwhelming, but just having gotten all the testing done, having finally gotten a real diagnosis, and having allowed myself to really experience all the hurt and sadness, I feel so much better.
I know I want a baby, and, though I know it is going to be so much harder than I ever thought it would be, I know that I have the strength and courage to go through it.
My husband has been my rock through all of this. When I finally opened up to him about how I was feeling, he finally let me know about how hard all of this has been on him, too, and that really allowed us to figure things out as a couple. Since then he has gone to every appt, every u/s, every blood draw, and held my hand through it all. We are closer now than ever.
If you are thinking about giving up now, maybe look at why you feel that way. Do you really not mind the idea of not having kids? Or are you just really overwhelmed with it all? Do you maybe just need to take a break for a bit, focus on YOU for a while? Rekindle some real fire with your husband? Do you just need to sit and talk with him? Do you need to separate TTC from lovemaking? What will work for you? Will that work for him. And if you do get to the end of the conversation and you both decide to call it quits, just know that that is totally fine!
And just because you make a decision today doesn't mean you have to stick with that decision, say, a year from now. Or two years from now. People have children well into their 40's. Yes, it's harder, but it is nowhere near impossible. And like you said, adoption is always an option.
I hope you find peace in whatever decision you make. If you need an ear, feel free to message me.
Good luck with the SA results. 
The doctor had to tell me not to laugh.)
