one of those nights.....

[HearMyPrayers]

so hubby is gone out and it dawned on me that Im cd36 and no AF....light brown spotting but thats it since Thursday. I have a CB preg test so I took it....stupid me

Anyways...now I'm alone...and feeling really really low. Really low. I've never felt so discouraged in all my life, or like something was so far out of my reach its soooo frustrating! just needed to vent.

 

[2have4kids]

AF hasn't come yet...there's still a chance. CB is one of the tests that take quite a high level of hgc for it to present a positive. Keep happy sister, focus on something you enjoy tonight. I'm sending you HUGE bear hugs

 

[HearMyPrayers]

AF hasn't come yet...there's still a chance. CB is one of the tests that take quite a high level of hgc for it to present a positive. Keep happy sister, focus on something you enjoy tonight. I'm sending you HUGE bear hugs

thank you! its just that damn negative always seems so final lol! I dont know why I even test for....both my tubes are possibly blocked so I'm sure its pointless to even get my hopes up lol

 

[2have4kids]

Anything can happen-you can't keep trying thinking it's not going to work. Your job is to stay positive. I get crazy depressed and emotional (teary) at AF. This month was pretty bad. It doesn't matter what anyone else says it's just a sad, depressing time for me. I try to watch my fav show, keep busy, read & sleep lots. Sleep really helps. But try to keep your chin up. How do they know about your tubes?

 

[arizonagal]

Hope you can cheer up, I'm sorry! Hugs!

 

[HearMyPrayers]

Anything can happen-you can't keep trying thinking it's not going to work. Your job is to stay positive. I get crazy depressed and emotional (teary) at AF. This month was pretty bad. It doesn't matter what anyone else says it's just a sad, depressing time for me. I try to watch my fav show, keep busy, read & sleep lots. Sleep really helps. But try to keep your chin up. How do they know about your tubes?

I had my HSG on July 27th and it showed possible bilateral blockage right at the point where the tube connects to the uterus on both sides. I'm scheduled for a lap/dye and hysteroscopy on Oct 19th to confirm 100%.

 

[stayinhappy]

Unfortunatley we all know that feeling way to well! I'm sorry that happened to you...just try something that makes you happy...good movie, jammies, popcorn and wine makes me happy! I agree on the sleep...it seems if I just get through the 1st day of my cycle...then the next few are ok and again I am optimistic by the time we need to start trying again.
Oh yes.....insanely chocolatey cake helps too!

 

[jessandaj]

Im sorry i have those days alot. TTC is just so hard i mean its something we cannot control at all no matter what we do how much effort we put in how much money we have we just cant make it happen yeah we can do the things that are supposed to but it doesint work and then other get pregnant around us who dont deserve it psh its like working and having a new employee get the promotion youve been working on since you started just bullshit ! hope everything goes well at your lap/dye and hysto

 

[2have4kids]

How's it going tonight HearMyPrayers? I hope the worst is over and this month answers/solves your problems. Good things to look forward to. If they can clear the blockage, which sometimes happens during the procedure, you'll have your best shot yet at getting that BPF for the next few months.

 

[HearMyPrayers]

How's it going tonight HearMyPrayers? I hope the worst is over and this month answers/solves your problems. Good things to look forward to. If they can clear the blockage, which sometimes happens during the procedure, you'll have your best shot yet at getting that BPF for the next few months.

AF actually still hasn't shown up I've done 4 test all BFN. I've been spotting for almost a week I'm on cd38. I was a 35 day cycle till I went on clomid then I went to every 28 days and stayed like that for the last 2 months while off clomid, but now I'm all out of whack because I still dont have the witch yet She just needs to come and be gone already lol. I'm really on edge about the surgery I'm just worried he will go in there and find something catastrophic that can't be fixed! I'm pessimistic what can I say