pain/emotions..im a mess

[Mummy2B1989]

With my first pregnancy I had really bad spd and was signed off work from 20 weeks.

This time (22 weeks now) ive been fine..but my backs recently been getting sorer and sorer. My hips and pelvis are fine, thankfully. But I think 100 hours of overtime over the last 7 weeks..keeping a house and a toddler have made it worse.

Anywho..I have two jobs and last night I worked 8am-11pm between the two and by the end of the night my feet were literally oozing out my shoes. I then had to crawl out of bed this morning with the pains in my back and the proceeded to cry for 15mins with the pain.

Then...I realised that I only have a few months left to spend one on one with my lb this makes me sad that I wont have as much time for and with him when baby comes. Im obviously in love with the baby already but im scared how its gonna change my relationship with my son

 

[ajlj1126]

Oh honey I'm right there with you! I look at my DD and cry & ask her to forgive me. She has no idea what's going on though, thankfully. So many times over the past few weeks I wonder if I'm shorting her by bringing in a new baby and I won't have all my time and devotion to give to her. It helps that she's such a daddy's girl, though, and prefers him over me right now, so he really is awesome and promises to pick up the slack!

As for work, is there any way you can cut down the hours? I know how you feel though since I need to work to help the family, especially now, so I'm putting in as much time now as I can to save up the money for when LO comes, since I don't get ANY paid time off. So the 6-8 weeks I take will be only 1 income.