paranoid wreck ....

[mummyyshearer]

well after 4years TTC me and my partner have finally had our BFP...

2years ago (almost exactly same time of year) we had a ectopic after going through fertility treament & startin clomid. I was around 7wks at the time... so as you can imagine im paranoid as hell this time around that im going to miscarry etc...

going by last period im roughly 7wks so im abit anxious.... i have bit more symptoms this time round so im wondering if this is a good sign? my boobs hurt and i get a bit nausea... im also a tad bit constipated at times aswell... ive got a early scan booked on wednesday and im soo scared im going to get bad news :/ though something deep down is tellin me this time round is going to be positive etc....

anyone else feel/felt like this ??

 

[krissie328]

Me!

I was ltttc both my children. I also had two losses between them. I'm still paranoid something is going to go wrong. I just cannot wait to have this baby in my arms.

 

[mummyyshearer]

I dont think il settle til i hit 12wk scan...

My first preg test was very faint (was day before i was due) and stayed faint for first few weeks... but i done a digi and showed 1-2... then exactly a week after i dont another digi and showed 2-3 so im guessin soo far soo good... im gonna do my last digi test (since its lying collecting dust lol) on wed before my scan see if it moves to 3+ since they will of all been done a week apart.... thought maybe the tuesday cos my scans pretty early and i need a full bladder....

ive got a feelin my scan wont show much which will just add to my worry

 

[Allie84]

Hi ladies,

Yes, I am definitely a paranoid wreck. I have been LTTTC as well, and this is my first BFP since my son...and he was born in 2011! I had a MC at 5 weeks in 2010. It all feels so long ago!

I know what you mean, and I feel like I won't relax until 12 weeks. It's just constantly on my mind and even though I have symptoms and good BFPs I am not the kind of person who can relax!

Where in Scotland do you stay? I am American but DH and DS are Scottish and we lived in Edinburgh for a number of years.

 

[Mona15]

Totally understand what you're going through. Can't stop worrying, I think even 12 week scan won't make me feel better. 😁 My docs won't do early scans because I'm not high risk, so I guess will have to wait until 8 or 12 weeks (I'm 6+ now). Which might be better, last time with my loss I had a scan showing healthy 7w baby and MCed the same afternoon, so now nothing is reassuring for me! 😁 It's so difficult to relax! 😰

 

[krissie328]

I'm 21 weeks and still nervous. Pregnancy is just extremely high stress for me.

 

[mummyyshearer]

Thank guys!!

Awww im originally from edinburgh!! I stay around Falkirk area now though

Oh god see im nervous to be told tht its all healthy etc then miscarry as i feel like thts goin to be worse... im gettin a early scan cos ive been goin through fertility clinic and i had my ectopic 2yrs ago...

 

[Cara x]

Yes! 4 years for me too! Had a miscarriage at 5wks the first cycle TTC and this is our first BFP since then!

I was very nervous when pregnant with my son too, but all our issues have definitely made the paranoia worse. Currently only 4-5 weeks and I feel like it's consuming me! Having some light bleeding which doesn't help.

I think your gut feeling is definitely something to be trusted, but I totally understand not wanting to get your hopes up x

 

[mummyyshearer]

Weve wanted this for soo long so i dnt want another heartbreak.... i dont think il settle til my 12wk scan.... my gut is tellin me things are fine etc but my head is just a big mess wi worry n paranoia