Posting instead of Testing (craziness of symptom spotting)

[crayons]

Hi.

So as the title suggests, I'm driving myself crazy with "symptoms" and I really don't want to test again. We've exceeded the one-year mark and I'm tired of the negatives.

I was *so* sure last month. I had every textbook early symptom I think I could've had or could've found listed on any checklist. Tired, weird cramps, headaches (which I don't usually get), dizziness/nauseated at times, sleep patterns all messed up, bbs so sore couldn't wear a bra one night...and so on and so forth.

Took two tests and, of course, negative on both.

AF shows up right on time and I'm still trying to hold on to some sort of twisted hope, trying to determine flow/color/duration thinking it might be some sort of implantation/early bleeding thing. Light bleeding (which is usual) lasted four days.

That was a little over a week ago, but the "symptoms" haven't really stopped. Blue veins, tired, dull achy cramps, hot flashes...ugh

I know it's in my head and I'm just trying to get it out so I can relax to focus on this month making things happen.

 

[laura109]

Good luck i hope its your month.

ive just got my bfp after six months of trying.

funny thing is i did not get any symptoms compared to other months when i was sure i was pregnant.

i obsessed over it alot. This month i decided im having sex to have sex not to make a baby. I said to myself it wont happen so no point. And hey presto im four weeks pregnant today.

try and relax. It is true what they say it happens easier when your npt obsessing.

Hope u get your bfp x

 

[BeachyFeelin]

crayons -

I know it can get exhausting seeing those negatives, but if you feel strongly like something is off I think it would be worth it to at least pick up a dollar store test and use it. I know if I had that going on, I would be testing.

We are going into our 9th cycle, so I can begin understand how heartbreaking it can be after a year of no luck as we are getting pretty close to that. I know every cycle when I start spotting like clock work I examine it so closely hoping this time it's possibly implantation related.

Have you thought about seeing your Dr. yet? Do you have any infertility issues that you know of?

If you need to talk to someone, I'm here! And fortunately (unfortunately) lots of other ladies here can understand and relate to what you are feeling/going through.