Pregnant after miscarriage and guilt

[Kath86]

Hello everyone, first of all I'd like to thank this great place and everyone sharing a personal story, it helped me a lot with trying to keep my spirits up after I had lost our first baby on June 11th, reading positive success stories really helped me stop thinking about that horrible day and I'm sure out there they're helping other women, who may or may not be members, manage such a difficult time in their lives.

I've decided to sign up and sorta come out of my own closet when I realized that even though I got pregnant right after the MC on June, after a couple days I still don't really believe it's true... After MC I picked up smoking again, after 8 happy non smoker months and right now I'm finding it so hard to stop again, as you may guess feeling guilty as hell.
I feel like I'm not giving this baby or pregnancy a chance, and I just don't get it because I also feel like this second chance is a blessing, a gift that came just at the right time to make it easier for us giving us the possibility to still look forward to a 2014 with the happiness of becoming (first time) parents...
So here I am, doing something so stupid (absolutely no offense to anyone who may be in the same position) and feeling awful about it yet not being able to stop... I would greatly appreciate any imput from here, positve or not, judgy or encouraging... Thank you.

 

[KimbaK]

It's ok, sort of.

Lots of people in the past use to drink and smoke during pregnancy.
In some cases women didn't know they were even pregnant.
And now recently in the last few decades dying your hair is seen as a risk!?
When I spoke to my aunty she said she dyed her hair with all her children.

I believe you'll quit soon. Your body will just want to, like taking chamax.
Anyway, how much do you smoke? If you really cannot give up, a couple of cigarettes a day is considered ok by doctors.
Best none at all though.....obviously

Good luck.

 

[KimbaK]

Oh, and Kath, welcome

 

[scarolinarn04]

I can relate to this. After so many losses, and quitting each time I saw those 2 lines only to have end a few weeks later, it did become hard to quit. This time I didn't quit immediately, but the nausea kicked in pretty soon and I didn't want them anymore. Obviously, the best thing is stop as soon as possible, but I can understand where you are coming from.

 

[Kath86]

Hi KimbaK, thankfully the drinking isn't a problem for me and I also gave up any beauty routines involving chemicals after I found out about my first pregnancy.
I smoke about 15 cigs a day, which I guess is considered pretty hardcore... I'm so freaking mad about the fact that I obviously needed something to to soothe myself thinking yet again I'd be able to just quit when the time was right again... Oh well...I've set a date, all I can do is cross my fingers that I'll do the right thing, again. As far as asking the professionals I don't really believe that someone can do that much for you, it is something you have to "manage" for yourself.
Thank you for good luck, I will definitely need some

Hi Scarolinarn04 thank you and congratulations, you're so close!!
I didn't have any morning sickness whatsoever during my first pregnancy, I did make it to the 10th week and was feeling wonderful, happy and relaxed.
So I guess I'll have to wait and see if that's something that's gonna come up for me this time, I'd probably embrace it if that's even possible lol