Scared

[sedgeez]

So I'm not due my period until next week, but i was getting some of the symptoms I had last time and just had a feeling.

Even though it's early, I figured I'd try my luck doing a test today.

I did a first response and it was a faint positive. I've posted pics in the pregnancy test gallery area.

According to my LMP I'm 4 weeks and 1 day.

I'm terrified. We lost our angel at 10 weeks back in feb of this year. We had been trying for over 2 years for the baby we lost. I have PCOS and we had difficulty conceiving again.

This feels so surreal today, but me and my partner are feeling so anxious.

He isn't even that happy because he is so worried.
We thought that once we got pregnant wit our rainbow we would be over the moon. But if I'm honest, although I am happy, I'm absolutely scared.

It's super early too which doesn't help, it means a hell of a lot of waiting for the first scan.

I just feel like I've been robbed of something that should be an exciting, special time.

 

[Kasey84]

Congrats sedgeez. I am praying that this is your rainbow!

I understand how your feeling. OH and I found it very hard to be excited about this pregnancy due to worrying about another loss. Unfortunately the joy and innocence of pregnancy is gone after a loss, but as difficult as it is to worry everyday I know it will all be worth it when I have this baby in my arms!

Thinking of you and sending hugs! Keep us posted!

 

[Emily2630]

I found it really hard to be excited too, which really upset me because it's supposed to be such a fun and wonderful happy time, not filled with worry and dread. I understand, it's not fun. I didn't start to really enjoy this pregnancy until about 12 weeks after a normal ultrasound. Good luck. Worrying won't help any but it's hard not to

 

[Tulip]

It's absolutely normal to be beside yourself with fear The only way I got myself through the early weeks with DS was to tell myself "Today, I am pregnant and all is well." Just take it a day at a time. I know the time stretches out ahead of you - I'm a day in front of you with this one and going out of my mind with worry and Impatience! Xxx

 

[dairymomma]

I'm there myself right now. Some days I'm giddy with disbelief that I'm pregnant again but then there's the days like today, where I'm worried sick because my symptoms seem to be going away and I've had crampy/achey pangs in my lower belly. It's especially hard when my doctor even seems to think this will end with my 9th m/c. But I just keep thinking, "What will be, will be." It's hard to be excited and happy but I'm trying to because I have two kids who don't need to see me going bonkers with worry every five minutes.

 

[sedgeez]

Thank you for all your replies.

Every time I go toilet I expect to see blood.

I just feel like I can't relax until I've had a scan. Even then ill still be worried!