I just experienced my third loss on Friday.... I don't know where to go or what to do from here. I feel so lost and alone, and no "medical professionals" are very willing to help.
I have had a relatively smooth pregnancy for the past 17 weeks... Thursday afternoon, I went to the hospital because i felt fluids leaking. They were able to locate baby's heartbeat, but determined I had bulging membranes and was dilated 2 cm. they wouldn't do anything to help me. I sat with my boyfriend in a hospital room alone, all night... Nurses came in a couple times for vitals.... No one would check my baby. Friday morning they shipped me out to a city hospital.... Where the waiting game began. We sat there for 10 hours, doctor I was set to for an assessment just kept blowing us off.... No one was checking on the baby, no one was willing to help. None of these so called doctors were willing to out down there god damn text book for answers to actually try something that may or may not be worth a shot. Even if any preventative action was a waste of time, how can you not try every resource possible? I was ignored and shuffled around, cometely neglected. The doctor finally came in to see us.... 2 minutes after I delivered my second stillborn son in the last year.
I have so much hatred and anger inside me, how could they let my baby die, just write us both off so quickly? How does this happen again? April 2012 21 week preterm labour resulting in stillbirth of my first son. November 2012 6 week miscarriage. July 2013 17 week delivery if my second son. This is not normal, and this is not ok! Why don't these doctors care? When did they turn in to robots faith no compassion? Thank god for nurses, who were all running around after this so called doctor trying their hardest to get him to me. I just can't believe in anything anymore.
I have had a relatively smooth pregnancy for the past 17 weeks... Thursday afternoon, I went to the hospital because i felt fluids leaking. They were able to locate baby's heartbeat, but determined I had bulging membranes and was dilated 2 cm. they wouldn't do anything to help me. I sat with my boyfriend in a hospital room alone, all night... Nurses came in a couple times for vitals.... No one would check my baby. Friday morning they shipped me out to a city hospital.... Where the waiting game began. We sat there for 10 hours, doctor I was set to for an assessment just kept blowing us off.... No one was checking on the baby, no one was willing to help. None of these so called doctors were willing to out down there god damn text book for answers to actually try something that may or may not be worth a shot. Even if any preventative action was a waste of time, how can you not try every resource possible? I was ignored and shuffled around, cometely neglected. The doctor finally came in to see us.... 2 minutes after I delivered my second stillborn son in the last year.
I have so much hatred and anger inside me, how could they let my baby die, just write us both off so quickly? How does this happen again? April 2012 21 week preterm labour resulting in stillbirth of my first son. November 2012 6 week miscarriage. July 2013 17 week delivery if my second son. This is not normal, and this is not ok! Why don't these doctors care? When did they turn in to robots faith no compassion? Thank god for nurses, who were all running around after this so called doctor trying their hardest to get him to me. I just can't believe in anything anymore.
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