So nervous and worried! Ugh! :(

[PrayingPixie]

I am supposed to be 5 weeks pregnant today and I have my 2nd hcg blood draw today and I'm so nervous! At times I feel so tired and hungry and prego but at others I find myself checking to see if I'm still peeing more, hungry more, more tired, etc. Since I've had the recurrent mc/mmcs I feel so insecure and find myself 2nd guessing everything! I know it's likely just early days so sometimes I'm not gonna feel pg and sometimes I will but with this situation and having been through the losses it's so hard to stay optimistic! Part of me thinks if we can just get to where we see a hb then I can feel a little reassured but even then not fully as with my last loss we saw a hb at 7 weeks and baby died at 8 weeks 3 days. I really wish I could just be calm about all of this but it's so hard! Does anyone else feel like this? Thanks for listening to my rant!

 

[chipmunk wife]

I've never been through anything like this, but my advice, as difficult as it may seem, would be to relax. I can't imagine what it feels like to experience such loss, but remember that added stress can cause problems with your pregnancy, and you don't want to contribute to anything going wrong (not that it will!) Keep focusing on eating right and doing things that will help keep yourself and baby happy and healthy and don't worry unless there is hard evidence that you should. Hope everything goes okay with the appointment!! Think positive thoughts!

 

[flou]

I am so sorry for your losses and I hope the little one you are carrying will be your rainbow. I've experienced two losses prior to my current pregnancy. At the start i was completely anxious and I still get worried about losing this little one. I'm 9 weeks today and symptoms are still good. I had an early scan at 7 weeks and saw a heartbeat. We are hoping this will be our rainbow. And that's all we can do is just hope. I'm scared and anxious but just trying to take each day as it comes and enjoy the fact that today I am pregnant. I'm hoping i won't be as anxious when I hit the second trimester.

 

[Topanga053]

I really wish I could just be calm about all of this but it's so hard! Does anyone else feel like this? Thanks for listening to my rant!

I did! I had a MMC diagnosed at 9 weeks and then got pregnant again 10 months later. I was terrified and really coped by pretending the pregnancy wasn't real. I refused to discuss the pregnancy or plans for the baby for most of my pregnancy. I started feeling a little better in the 2nd tri and felt much better after my gender scan. My little rainbow is 6 months old now and is healthy and growing like a weed! PAL is terrifying and I was scared for most of my pregnancy, but she still turned out healthy as can be! With time, you'll find a way to cope with the fear that works for you. I'm praying for a H&H 9 months for you!!

 

[PrayingPixie]

Awww thank you ladies! I truly appreciate it! Well I've already gone and had my blood drawn for my 2nd hcg test, I've peed about 6 times today and I'm hungry and craving a banana shake. Also a few mins ago I sneezed, got up to get tissue to blow my nose, sneezed again and for the first time this pregnancy, got that sharp pulling pains on the sides of my abdomen. So that has to mean that I'm already stretching and growing a little down there and that that's happening because baby is growing and thus my hcg is still rising, too. This sound about right? I'm hoping that's what it is and that that pain I had is a good sign!??

The nurse at my dr office is so sweet! She told me that if I don't hear from her by 10 am and start getting ancy that I can call her and gave me her direct line number at the office to get my hcg results but asked that I wait till after 10 am because they get results in in the mornings and in the afternoons and she wants to make sure she has them when she calls me or when I call her. They know what I've been through and are trying to help me to be able to be as calm as possible this time around and do all that they can to help me be reassured that everything is going well and monitoring me closely since I'm high risk. I am so so grateful for them doing that for me! It really helps to feel like they care and want to help put my mind at ease if at all possible! Today after she drew my blood she said to me "now positive thoughts! Positive energy out, positive energy in for good news tomorrow!", which was so awesome of her. It really made me smile.

So I guess I'm just getting myself worked up due to what I've been through. It really is hard when you've been through the losses like this and facing that fear all over again. So thank you again ladies for your kind words! I really do appreciate it! I'm also very sorry for the losses that you gals have suffered as well. I wouldn't wish it on anyone! Keeping everything x'ed for a healthy rainbow baby for all of us! I'll post tomorrow after I find out my hcg results! Please keep me and this baby in thoughts and prayers! I so appreciate it!

 

[Lynn98]

Hi I have had 1 miscarrage in January this year and 1 etopic pregnancy in May this year it burst first week of July and I lost my tube. I am pregnant again an it's only august I am scared stiff and need some positive story's I think I am 5 weeks according to my last af but haven't contacted my go yet help guys xoxo

 

[kaygee]

I know exactly how you feel ladies. So sorry for your losses; I had 2 losses last year and they are the most devastating things I have ever had to go through.

I am now 17 weeks pregnant and, to be completely honest, still have days when I am scared and worry that something might be wrong. I does get better though - in the 1st trimester, I worried all day every day. I knew that seeing the hb would help massively (and it did) but I don't think that lurking fear ever goes completely away. PAL takes a lot of the joy of pregnancy away, I think.

Have hope ladies! This forum is FULL of people expecting their rainbows...me included. Good things do happen eventually! And when we are finally holding our rainbow babies in our arms, we'll wonder what all the fuss was about

Health and happy pregnancies to you all xo

 

[loeylo]

I am scared too. I found out yesterday and have already done three tests, and I swear they are getting lighter I am completely obsessed!

I have had two miscarriages and not had any testing, so in reality it could be that I have something causing me not to be able to carry. I am petrified

At least you will know one way or the other tomorrow! Good luck

 

[PrayingPixie]

I am scared too. I found out yesterday and have already done three tests, and I swear they are getting lighter I am completely obsessed!

I have had two miscarriages and not had any testing, so in reality it could be that I have something causing me not to be able to carry. I am petrified

At least you will know one way or the other tomorrow! Good luck

Since you didn't see my post after this one, that last hcg test was good news with hcg being at 1112. But now this friday is my first scan and I'm scared and nervous all over again! UGH! Just praying it will be nothing but good news again! Thanks for your kind words and I pray that your bean stays and grows!

 

[loeylo]

That is a great number! I am going to phone in the morning to see if I can have bloods done, it isn't routine here in the UK but I need to know.

Thinking about it, I was dying for a pee with the first test so it could just be that LOL