Oh honey I'm so sorry for your loss x you must be heartbroken and I think I would be the same x
I know its easy to say but try to be positive for the future but take this time to grieve, you have every right to and your heart and mind need to go through that in order for you to live your life x
Do something special over this weekend like take a walk somewhere pretty, start a new tradition that you do every year to celebrate Kaleb, give your grief a purpose xxx
Hope you don't mind me posting and its only some thoughts.... if you feel like getting drunk and having a fight then go for that too, whatever gets you through the day!! xxx