ladysarcasma
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Five years ago, I had very high blood pressure and my labor was induced (it probably should have been a c-section in the first place). I went through 32 hours of labor and a couple hours of pushing before they said she couldn't fit. She was pushed back in. I was wheeled into emergency surgery where I hemorrhaged badly (they sprayed something on my tongue, so I imagine my heart had slowed), and I ended up with a blood transfusion. Woke up in ICU on a breathing tube, baby was in NICU. My doctor told me at follow up I couldn't get pregnant again for at least 18 months (noooo problem!) and any other births must be c-sections because of the trap-door incision in my uterus.
Fast forward 5 years. I'm with another partner. The first was a very nasty person, and there was a whole lot of stress involved in the pregnancy, which may have caused some problems in the first place. I'm 9 weeks pregnant. This was not planned. I said I would never ever do this again because I believed I would die if I had to have surgery again. But here I am. I'm so scared of this surgery, it's starting to cause me stress already and I'm only at 9 weeks. I'm crying like a baby all the time, scared that at 31 years old, I'll leave my 5 year old behind when I go to have this baby.
Has anyone else had an emergency followed by a planned? Was the experience really scary? How did it go? Was anyone else as terrified as I am to do this? Please help. It's almost debilitating! I just can't be happy and enjoy this pregnancy, even though I really want to.
Fast forward 5 years. I'm with another partner. The first was a very nasty person, and there was a whole lot of stress involved in the pregnancy, which may have caused some problems in the first place. I'm 9 weeks pregnant. This was not planned. I said I would never ever do this again because I believed I would die if I had to have surgery again. But here I am. I'm so scared of this surgery, it's starting to cause me stress already and I'm only at 9 weeks. I'm crying like a baby all the time, scared that at 31 years old, I'll leave my 5 year old behind when I go to have this baby.
Has anyone else had an emergency followed by a planned? Was the experience really scary? How did it go? Was anyone else as terrified as I am to do this? Please help. It's almost debilitating! I just can't be happy and enjoy this pregnancy, even though I really want to.