Felicia_D
Mom to 3
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SOS! Please help. Im trying so hard to not get discouraged, but Im grasping at straws here. This pregnancy has been one where it seems like I did everything "right" and everything went "wrong". Starting at 15 weeks, I was diagnosed with a SCH on babyA placenta-which I think restricted DSs growth, and later caused PROM. This resulted in 2 trips to the ER for major hemmoragig of the hematoma despite trying to take it as easy as I could bw 2 other kids and a job....I have never seen THAT much blood in my life!! Anyway, bc of this when my water broke at 26 weeks @ 2am, I thought it was just another hemorrhage or possibly it resolving it self bc it was SO dark almost black.
From 2am June 5 until my twins were born @4pm on June 7, my days consisted of being pumped with mag sulfate, on "bed rest" compete with catheter, given steroid shots, and constant monitoring trying to keep them in as long as possibe. Everything seemed to be plausible, until the 7th when Everyime I wa§ able to even catch a quick nap for 10 mins (hadn't really been able to sleep for a week prior to prom for some reason), DSs heart rate would drop and it kept taking longer to have it come back up. They ended up rushing me to the OR for an EMCS.
FRom there they were immediately whisked away and into the nicu where they've been since. Once in recovery lactation came and had me start pumping almost immediately. I was able to get some milk out then so easily. I had hope, despite everything already making it harder. While in the hospital I stayed on bed rest for the first 3 days and not able to see my babies besides a few seconds from recovery to my room where i stayed until discharged (almost a week after being admitted).
In the hospital, despite my pumping and manually expressing every 2 hours, my milk never came in. I came home and once.cleaned up and my milk came flooding in! Finally! Something familiar. Something that was like my other two experiences eventho it was so late to come in this time...i was finally making milk. However, when I expressed-which seemed to be the only way I got anything out In the early days NBD, anything for my babies by any means necessary.-i was already getting significantly less than I did hours before.
The next day my supply seemed to even out, but on the off chance it didnt I started taking fenugreek. It worked wonders for me when I went back to work after having my first son (Who i nursed/breasted for 2 years). my milkey doubled and i couldnt have been happier. The twins were doing good, better than OH and I honestly expected for them being as small and early as thwy were, and my milk was coming in in full force...and while still manually expressing.
That lasted about 2 days, before my milk had completely disappeared. OH talked to lactation one morning-just happened to be in the nicu hearing on the twins at the time OH was dropping off milk Otw to school. And brought home a rented hospital grade pump for me. It was great for a day. For the day that my milk came back. I was able to pump @ least 15 ml working a few mins Everyime i pumped. The twins were doing good and even upped their milk to 1.8ml each feeding.
And that was the last that ive seen of my milk.
Ive tried taking an extra fenugreek capsule, drinking a beer with dinner instead of water (again), taking Mother Love pills that have everything Thats supposed to help, combination expressing/pumping every 2 hours with "cluster pumping" morning and before bed, pumping/expressing for 40+ mins at a time, hot showers/heating pads/wash cloth. Ive tried everything I can think of. Ask about skin to skin every time im in the nicu, but lately DS has had an infection and DD has "been cold" so I went from being able to hold DD at least, to neither one (Depending on the nurse I can hold DD dearer everything. But still have not been able to hold DS at all.)
Im at a loss. I have no idea what else to do. I dont want to give up especially some early, but I am so damn frustrated with pumping all day and MAYBE getting LITERALLY 2 drops of milk all day. It seems like the more I try the less I have of milk, time, and patience. I dont know what to do, and I really dont want to have to take prescriptions just to breastfeed.
From 2am June 5 until my twins were born @4pm on June 7, my days consisted of being pumped with mag sulfate, on "bed rest" compete with catheter, given steroid shots, and constant monitoring trying to keep them in as long as possibe. Everything seemed to be plausible, until the 7th when Everyime I wa§ able to even catch a quick nap for 10 mins (hadn't really been able to sleep for a week prior to prom for some reason), DSs heart rate would drop and it kept taking longer to have it come back up. They ended up rushing me to the OR for an EMCS.
FRom there they were immediately whisked away and into the nicu where they've been since. Once in recovery lactation came and had me start pumping almost immediately. I was able to get some milk out then so easily. I had hope, despite everything already making it harder. While in the hospital I stayed on bed rest for the first 3 days and not able to see my babies besides a few seconds from recovery to my room where i stayed until discharged (almost a week after being admitted).
In the hospital, despite my pumping and manually expressing every 2 hours, my milk never came in. I came home and once.cleaned up and my milk came flooding in! Finally! Something familiar. Something that was like my other two experiences eventho it was so late to come in this time...i was finally making milk. However, when I expressed-which seemed to be the only way I got anything out In the early days NBD, anything for my babies by any means necessary.-i was already getting significantly less than I did hours before.
The next day my supply seemed to even out, but on the off chance it didnt I started taking fenugreek. It worked wonders for me when I went back to work after having my first son (Who i nursed/breasted for 2 years). my milkey doubled and i couldnt have been happier. The twins were doing good, better than OH and I honestly expected for them being as small and early as thwy were, and my milk was coming in in full force...and while still manually expressing.
That lasted about 2 days, before my milk had completely disappeared. OH talked to lactation one morning-just happened to be in the nicu hearing on the twins at the time OH was dropping off milk Otw to school. And brought home a rented hospital grade pump for me. It was great for a day. For the day that my milk came back. I was able to pump @ least 15 ml working a few mins Everyime i pumped. The twins were doing good and even upped their milk to 1.8ml each feeding.
And that was the last that ive seen of my milk.
Ive tried taking an extra fenugreek capsule, drinking a beer with dinner instead of water (again), taking Mother Love pills that have everything Thats supposed to help, combination expressing/pumping every 2 hours with "cluster pumping" morning and before bed, pumping/expressing for 40+ mins at a time, hot showers/heating pads/wash cloth. Ive tried everything I can think of. Ask about skin to skin every time im in the nicu, but lately DS has had an infection and DD has "been cold" so I went from being able to hold DD at least, to neither one (Depending on the nurse I can hold DD dearer everything. But still have not been able to hold DS at all.)
Im at a loss. I have no idea what else to do. I dont want to give up especially some early, but I am so damn frustrated with pumping all day and MAYBE getting LITERALLY 2 drops of milk all day. It seems like the more I try the less I have of milk, time, and patience. I dont know what to do, and I really dont want to have to take prescriptions just to breastfeed.
