still so angry

[teal]

I seem to go between feeling numb and feeling really angry about what happened with FOB.

I'll never understand how someone can have a child out there and not want to know. He knows nothing about LO and I mean nothing. He doesn't even know if I had a boy or a girl.

I'll look at my son and can't believe how horrible FOB was towards him before he was even here

I still get really upset about it. Not upset because of me - upset because i worry if I'll be enough for my son. I worry that he'll be missing out because his father isn't around. I worry about things that are way in the future such as explaining to my son about FOB and all the future fathers day that will remind my son that his isn't around.

Sorry if I'm not making sense. Hopefully I'm just having an off night..

 

[Aidedhoney]

Hugs hun xxx

Its perfectly normal to feel how your feeling its all part of the process, as time passes things will become much more clearer and you will realise that you are all that your son needs.
Its FOB thats missing out big time and one day he will have huge regrets about how he has behaved towards you and lo.

I am not great at the whole advice thing but stay strong and keep smiling xx

 

[expecting09]

Oh sweetie, massive hugs

FOB isn't worthy of having his 'son' in his life. Gabriel doesn't need him, of course you'll be enough! I worry about the future too, fathers day, explaining to Kacie why her 'dad' isn't in her life. I guess with time it will better xx

 

[lou_w34]

I feel like that too sometimes, i think its normal as we are the ones who ar left to do all the worrying, i always worry about how i will explain to LO about FOB not being around, and i want to be truthfull with her, but i dont want to bad mouth him to her either, and i always imagine that if she ever finds him in the future he will tell her loads of lies and she will hate me, and i think how unfair that is, since he has done sod all for her and could potentially end up turning her against me... if that makes any sense.

Anyways i just try and think of something else now if i think of him! So much harder than it sounds though!

Just think of your LO and how happy he is going to be with you as a mummy, he doesnt need a man like that in his life.

And anyways, he can just give you a fathers day pressie... twice the gifts that way heehee



xxx

 

[suzanne108]

Massive massive hugs xxxxx

 

[teal]

Thanks for the replies girls I'm feeling a bit better today

Lou - I also get scared about FOB turning LO against me xx

 

[surprisebaby]

i feel the same. its so horrible. xx

 

[teal]

i feel the same. its so horrible. xx