Struggling

[Baby Bell]

I'm sorry Iv never posted in here before. But I dont think it would be fair to post on the stillbirth section as it's about my current pregnancy and I would hate to scare the ladies in second trimester section!

My wee boy was stillborn in December and I'm now 22 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby. Iv been coping well for most of this pregnancy, but about 2/3 weeks ago I had a small bleed (baby was fine) but since then my control has gone. Iv been signed off work for two weeks with back pain and becuase I'm not busy I notice baby's movements so much. If baby isn't kicking in a few hours I panic. I know that baby is only 22 weeks and still young to be counting kicks but I'm petrified. I don't think I could cope if if I lost another baby. Can't stop crying today. Haven't even had a shower or got dressed, feel like I'm recessing into when I first lost Eoin.

 

[Lottelotte]

I don't really know what to say, but didn't want to r+r.

I am sending you lots of

Lotte xx

 

[felicity0444]

I'm sorry Iv never posted in here before. But I dont think it would be fair to post on the stillbirth section as it's about my current pregnancy and I would hate to scare the ladies in second trimester section!

My wee boy was stillborn in December and I'm now 22 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby. Iv been coping well for most of this pregnancy, but about 2/3 weeks ago I had a small bleed (baby was fine) but since then my control has gone. Iv been signed off work for two weeks with back pain and becuase I'm not busy I notice baby's movements so much. If baby isn't kicking in a few hours I panic. I know that baby is only 22 weeks and still young to be counting kicks but I'm petrified. I don't think I could cope if if I lost another baby. Can't stop crying today. Haven't even had a shower or got dressed, feel like I'm recessing into when I first lost Eoin.

Don't worry you're in good company here. Alot, if not most, everyone here understands exactly what you are going through. I'm terrified every second of every day too. I just try to appreciate every day I have with my little thumper and pray for the best. I did find that female country music wakes him up and makes him active so i have to admit i wake him up quite a bit. lol. Good luck and try not to stress TOO bad. Stress is so bad for the one you are trying to protect. Hugs and thoughts..

 

[girlinyork]

Bell, did you go to counselling to help you come to terms with your loss? x

 

[Baby Bell]

Thank you for your replies. I'm not so bad today.
Girlinyork I see my gp 4 weekly for 'a chat' about how I'm coping, I see her on wed again. Iv also seen a midwife bereavement counsilolllr. Iv tried to phone the counsillor but she hasnt phoned back yet.
I'm trying not to stress xxx
Love to you all

 

[girlinyork]

Awww, it's so hard, but just remember you're more likely to have your baby in your arms this Christmas than not. Although statistics aren't always that reassuring lol xx