Well after nearly 2 and a half years ttc....am now on 4th round of clomid...which is making me ovulating...but still not getting pregnant..i have decided not to put my life on hold anymore. I have 2 more cycles of clomid and then that is it...i will b 43 in Aug and the chances of ivf working at that age are minimal... and me and dh would have to pay for it as i am too old for funding...although where i live if you are under 40 you now get 6 attempts on the NHS!!! so i realise that having a baby will n ot happen for me...and to be honest i feel quite liberated....dh and i have booked to go to the maldives for xmas...we went for our honeymoon last nov and said that we would love to go back, my mum died recently and left us some money so we are going to use some of that....i have no family now so the thought of being in the UK was not a happy one. We have also decided to buy a brand new house...so are soring out deposit and mortgage etc...we are renting at the mo, but thanks to my dear mum we now have a deposit...we are looking at a 3 bed house a few mins from here and it will be ready in the spring. And dh is going to change his car for a sports car and i am downsizing my car to a tiny toyota...i feel really good and positive that i am lucky to have all this to look forward too. Although the girls at work all said they were jealous that i was going back to the maldives...but i said that i would rather be in their position...spending xmas with parents and children but i cant so i am making the most of things!!! well thats me for tyhe timebeing...i am seeing fs tomorrow...i should have finished all my cycles of clomid before seeing him but had a break from it when looking after dear mum. so we will see what he has to say...but at the end of the day i am still a lucky girl.
Good luck to you all for getting your bfp xxxx
Good luck to you all for getting your bfp xxxx
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