JViti
*Autism Mommy*
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Hey all, its been MONTHS since I've posted in here. I've just been too upset to talk about whats been going on. I have no one to talk to about it, but then I realized that, since I am the only one in my family with infertility, I am alone in this. (I have my husband, but he just doesnt understand how much it hurts that us not having another baby is my fault.)
Ive done 4 clomid cycles. The last clomid cycle was in May, and I did this one on my own without the hassle of doctors appts, and blood work. So I took 150 mg of clomid on days 3-7 of my cycle. I took OPKs until I saw that Peak Fertility Smiley Face. Me and DH BD'd for a full week...everyday...sometimes twice a day. I have a 35 day cycle, so I got my HPT ready, as well as my tampons, just in case. Day 35 came and went. No AF. HPT negative. Day 40 came and went. No AF. HPT negative. I decided that I would leave it alone for about 2 weeks (I ran out of tests). Well 2 weeks came, and 2 weeks went. I got really excited. No AF, must mean I'm pregnant!! HPT negative...thats ok, its the blood test that really counts. I went to the docs, and explained the situation. She was hopeful that I finally was pregnant. Blood Test---negative. Not pregnant. She checked other things in the blood work as well, such as whether or not I have ovulated (which I told her I must have, I got a positive OPK reading). Nope. Didn't ovulate.
Apparantly, the clomid didnt work, and I got a false positive on my OPK (I guess when you have PCOS, that can happen). 
So its back to square one.
Had another HSG done last week, and it showed the same thing as the first (new doctor, she wanted to see for herself and not go off of someone elses notes). Scarred and utterly useless left tube, partially blocked right tube.
I have my next appt Sept 5 to discuss my options. We believe were going to go straight to IVF. I'm tired of waiting. I want the most AGGRESSIVE treatment. IDC if I get twins or triplets out of it, I just want to have another baby.
Sometimes I feel like I am being selfish, that I should be thankful for the child I do have. I am. I love my son with everything I have. I just dont feel like my family is complete.
OK, now that I have vented...I feel a lil better.
I need a TTC buddy...anyone want one??
Ive done 4 clomid cycles. The last clomid cycle was in May, and I did this one on my own without the hassle of doctors appts, and blood work. So I took 150 mg of clomid on days 3-7 of my cycle. I took OPKs until I saw that Peak Fertility Smiley Face. Me and DH BD'd for a full week...everyday...sometimes twice a day. I have a 35 day cycle, so I got my HPT ready, as well as my tampons, just in case. Day 35 came and went. No AF. HPT negative. Day 40 came and went. No AF. HPT negative. I decided that I would leave it alone for about 2 weeks (I ran out of tests). Well 2 weeks came, and 2 weeks went. I got really excited. No AF, must mean I'm pregnant!! HPT negative...thats ok, its the blood test that really counts. I went to the docs, and explained the situation. She was hopeful that I finally was pregnant. Blood Test---negative. Not pregnant. She checked other things in the blood work as well, such as whether or not I have ovulated (which I told her I must have, I got a positive OPK reading). Nope. Didn't ovulate.
Apparantly, the clomid didnt work, and I got a false positive on my OPK (I guess when you have PCOS, that can happen). So its back to square one.
Had another HSG done last week, and it showed the same thing as the first (new doctor, she wanted to see for herself and not go off of someone elses notes). Scarred and utterly useless left tube, partially blocked right tube.
I have my next appt Sept 5 to discuss my options. We believe were going to go straight to IVF. I'm tired of waiting. I want the most AGGRESSIVE treatment. IDC if I get twins or triplets out of it, I just want to have another baby.
Sometimes I feel like I am being selfish, that I should be thankful for the child I do have. I am. I love my son with everything I have. I just dont feel like my family is complete.
OK, now that I have vented...I feel a lil better.
I need a TTC buddy...anyone want one??
because it looks like you need one. I'm sorry you had a shitty cycle, getting a false positive on your OPK must be really disappointing, all that expectation for nothing.
) I to wish you tons of luck in seeking IVF treatment and completing your family, so a lot of baby dust for you. 
