Too soon to get excited?

[Amsan]

After a miscarriage and an ecoptic pregnancy, my eggo is preggo again..

I had some terrible cramping when I first found out, but the last few days the cramping has subsided.

Friday, 02/08 I had an appointment with my nurse who in turn sent me immediately for an ultrasound, which turned up inconclusive. I also had bloodwork done to test my HCG levels.

I got a call yesterday from my nurse telling me that my levels weren't where she would have liked them to be (421) so I needed to come in in the morning and she would like to see them at 2000.

I just got the call and my levels are at 2600!!!

I wanna burst out into tears of happiness and excitement... (as I sit here while writing this). But I don't want to get my hopes up.. at all. I still have a LONG way to go. And I feel HORRIBLE for wanting to NOT be as excited as I am. I seriously cannot wait until week 12 when I can finally relax a little be excited for this little tiny human growing inside of me.

 

[LuckyW]

Congratulations! I think most of us who have suffered a loss get sort of confused as to whether we should feel hopeful and excited or not.

I think I've been more excited than fearful. I figure if the worst thing happens, it's not like my disappointment will be diminished at all by having agonized all the while.

 

[angel2010]

Yes, I think we will all struggle with this. I just got my first faint bfp yesterday, at only 9-10dpo. I have already went to the lab for bloods and am very anxious to hear from them tomorrow. Then I will still be freaking out until I get past my missed period, then still freaking out until the 12 week mark. I sure even then that I won't be "relaxed".

Congrats on your number though!! It sounds very positive!

 

[Girly922]

I completely understand where you're coming from. I thought I'd be more nervous and anxious this time round but so far I'm feeling really positive. I just have a feeling this one is going to stick.

Your numbers sound perfect. Don't feel guilty for getting excited. This will be your rainbow baby!

 

[feistymomma]

I am struggling with this too. At times I am quite positive. I am feeling really good physically and haven't had any symptoms that would raise an eyebrow (expect for some cramping last week, but that has gone away). I scheduled my first appointment, which will be March 6th, and they will do my first ultrasound then. I am just so nervous that I will get there, and they will find that something has happened, and I didn't know it. I am so excited to be having this baby, I just can't imagine anything happening.

 

[Amsan]

Its so hard to find a happy medium, especially with all the hormones and emotions going on. I feel like I've been nothing but an emotional wreck the last to weeks. I think that's one of the worst things about knowing so early, is the eternity to wait to make sure everything is okay with baby. My first actual visit is the 22nd, and I'm praying they will do another ultrasound. I might guilt them into doing another one, just for peace of mind.