Ttc #1 and coming from hard past

[Mtrnlinstinct]

Hello my lovely ladies TTC!!! Especially those TTC number one. I have been married for eight years and definitely it has not been the best eight years but it has hadits ups and downs. In the beginning I was blissfully happy. Then my husband and I started having problems here and there. At first they were minor and I was willing to brush them off. But then the problems got worse and worse and I finally thought I should've left my husband and so did my family. But I persevered and made it work and now after all these years we are very happily happily married. 😃 we have both together finally agreed on TTC number one. I could not be happier because I have been waiting for this all my life. Everyone around me has told me I would be a great mother because I have babysat countless children and been a preschool teacher. These days it is very frustrating because my husband only wants to DTD when I am ovulating. It makes it seem like work as in time consuming and hard but we've only been trying a month so I am staying patient. People around us have realized how happy we both are. The only other people who know I am TTC number one are my grandmother and my older sister who I really respect and trust. I haven't toldy mother because since my father passed when I was ten our relationship has been rocky but we have been ok for the past years but I still have issues with her but try to remain polite and in touch once in a while or else she worries. Well, with that short bio, I live in Chicago near downtown and would love to make a friend nearby ttc. Sorry for the long post but I am very detail oriented and trust me, it was hard but I left out many details. Baby dust to you all!!!! Wish fate and luck on me. Muah!😘

 

[Bevziibubble]

Hi and welcome to BnB!

 

[doctordeesmrs]

Welcome

 

[Mtrnlinstinct]

Thanks! Just hope this is our month. Fingers crossed. Baby dust to all ttc #1. ✨✨

 

[Maries_s]

Welcome! Baby dust!

 

[ambernwxo]

Hey & welcome!
Wishing you lots of luck on this journey!

 

[xJG30]

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[Chris77]

Hi and welcome to BnB!

 

[juhnayrae]

Hi and welcome!!

 

[Mtrnlinstinct]

Thank you for all the great and warm welcoming. It's been 2 months trying to conceive and I am supposedly in my fertile window according to an app on my phone. I enter my info on it daily and accurately. It says I have unt tomorrow but I am not so sure if I am fertile. My cervical mucous is dry as in non existent! I tried feeling my cervix but am not quite good at knowibg exactly how to do it but I feel it's almost hard up there. Cone to think of if I don't think I felt cervical mucous this cycle! I felt some yesterday after I had a bowel movement but I felt if came from the bowel movement and wasn't cervixal mucous. Now I am so confused! I don't have a OBGYN I currently see but will find one soon. Another confusing thing is my husband has abstained from sex with me for several years and we are only active again during my fertile period and he only manages to do it once in the cycle because I think his libido is low. That really concerns me. He refuses to see a doctor and wants to try again until I get pregnant but I told him it's impossible if we only do it once! He wants to keep trying until we really have to see a doctor as the last resort but I think we should do it now *sigh*. I am so hopeful that the one try we did last week is all it took but I don't know for sure because it took my husband forever to um perform if that's what I can subtly call it. It's hard to talk to my sister about this because j don't want to overwhelm her plus she's busy with her 9 month old son. And I am too embarrassed and don't want her to know what s hard time we are having. Any who when my husband did perform it hurt and I felt dry up there but according to my charting and app I was in my second highest fertile day. I guess I'm just looking for support for other fellow women and I am sure other women experience this but I feel all the women on here have their relationship together and are not having these problems. Just pray for me all!! I know I've wanted to be a mother since I was young. I am currently a pre k teacher and wouldn't trade my job for any other unless it was because I am expecting. Sorry for the abundance in information and also too much information I gave. Baby dust to you all!!✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨