TTC again & feeling scared.

[Beankeeper]

This is my first cycle ttc after a 6 month break following my 5th miscarriage last year.
It's been a difficult journey & starting this new chapter is giving me mixed feelings. Still desperately want a sibling for my earth boy, but feel bad as if I'm moving on. Does that make sense?

 

[2angels1baby]

It makes perfect sense and just because you have Angel babies does not mean you cannot try again for another. You've grieved enough for you YOURSELF to continue onto trying to give your son someone to play with. Maybe sixth time is a charm? Good luck and baby dust to you!

 

[Beankeeper]

Thank you xx

 

[lilmisscaviar]

I understand where you're coming from. I would like to try again, but at the same time I'm afraid something will happen. I guess every woman feels this way any time she becomes pregnant, but it is heightened when you've suffered a loss, and it is taken to a whole different level once you've had more than one loss. I know what you mean by your "earth boy"... I tell myself that one day I would like to have more earth babies than angel babies. Right now I have 2 of each so it is difficult to decide whether to try again or not. I'm so scared.

 

[AnnNI]

I too have one Earth boy and 3 angels (2 mc - one was twins)! The whole TTC journey is tiresome and takes a lot of mental time - does anyone else find this?....i sometimes wonder whether im wasting time with my little man - though the desire to have a sibling for him far outweighs it most of the time! I am terrified to about getting pregnant....the first time i was carefree and ate crap and so blamed this and the more recent one i had a kidney infection and a terrible flu and sometimes i blame this. Its hard to know and its very scary!

 

[Beankeeper]

Definitely hear you there AnnNi, it's tiresome & DRAINING 😔

 

[Oasis717]

I know exactly how you feel I've had 7 losses since 2012 and myrainbow son in 2013. I had a 6 week loss followed immediately by a 12 week loss nearly 4 weeks ago after 2 perfect scans at 6.5 and 8.5 weeks. I'm waiting for AF ATM. We would like to try again but I'm so scared of another loss but then I can't end the journey either xxx