Update. Not good news. :(

[LacePrincess]

Had my 7w1d scan today. No HB and measure only 6w3d.

Taking Cytotec tonight. So for Xmas this year, Santa brought me a MMC. Isn't that just wonderful.

This'll be loss #3. Sucks beyond words.

 

[MySmileyBaba]

Didn't want to read and not say anything. I'm sorry to hear that lovely, sending love and light. Cuddle your boys and throw yourself into giving then the funniest, most awesome Christmas with their mama. You can get through this ^_^

 

[Trying4first1]

So sorry for your loss
Xx

 

[Bekah78]

So sorry for your loss. That really does suck just before Christmas, not that any time is good.

Hope your boys being excited about Christmas will help you through. Hugs xx

 

[eva1978]

I'm really sorry, that is just crap
hugs. xo

 

[Mrsmac02]

I'm so sorry hon, that really does suck. Thinking of you x

 

[theiska]

I'm so sorry! That's a b!tch! Let yourself grieve and don't feel forced to be happy, just because it's Christmas time. I hope you have a strong support system. I had a similar loss last month (same time frame), about 1-2 weeks before Thanksgiving. I spent the holiday alone in bed crying. I have 3 kiddos, too. So it's hard to not feel guilty, but they understand more than I thought they would. *hugs* pm me if you need to talk.

 

[LacePrincess]

I'm so sorry! That's a b!tch! Let yourself grieve and don't feel forced to be happy, just because it's Christmas time. I hope you have a strong support system. I had a similar loss last month (same time frame), about 1-2 weeks before Thanksgiving. I spent the holiday alone in bed crying. I have 3 kiddos, too. So it's hard to not feel guilty, but they understand more than I thought they would. *hugs* pm me if you need to talk.

Thanks so much. I appreciate the support! I'm hanging out with my boys watching them fight over Mario Kart and my DH yelling at them.....it helps to watch the normal.

Our extended family with a few exceptions aren't very good with this type of loss. So we've decided to do Xmas with just us and the kids, I can't deal with the others. My BIL's never even acknowledged our loss in Aug even though we announced it. Ugh.

The nightmare doesn't end though.....right now I've done two Cytotec doses that hasn't done the trick, I have two more to try and then I'll probably have to go get a d&c done on Monday. It all just stinks. I feel physically beat up, emotionally drained, and don't want to eat anything. Merry Christmas, huh?

 

[LDC]

Oh gosh I am so sorry, what an absolute shit one. I completely echo what theiska says; just because it's christmas doesn't mean you have to be having the time of your life. Those around you will also understand why you're feeling sad and hopefully support you through it. Sod everything and just make sure you're kind to yourself. Sending lots of hugs xxx