I found out at my scan on Monday that my baby had died at almost 12 weeks. I should have been nearly 14 weeks.
I was not expecting this, I had a scan around 9 weeks (just to check dates) and there was a baby with a good heart beat. And I have had two healthy babies already.
I suppose I thought being nearly 14 weeks, having already had a scan and never having any problems before, I thought I was out of the risk stage.
I am booked in to have a medically managed miscarriage at the weekend (it was the earliest they could book me in). And I just feel in limbo... I am walking around with a baby I know will never be and I just want this to be over with.
I know I wont wait any time before I try for another (funnily enough this baby was not planned, I was on the mini-pill when I fell pregnant), but when I found out I was pregnant, I started planning for a baby, so now I feel I just need to get on and try for another.
I desperately hope the bleeding does not last too long, I know there is nothing I can do about it, but I think it will make the feeling of being in limbo last even longer.
I feel like 14 weeks is a long time to be pregnant, just to have to start again. The hospital were talking to me about what was going to happen and the doctor kept describing it as a 'large' pregnancy, I know the baby is only about 2 inches long at this stage, but I found her choice of words to be a bit scary, especially if I end up miscarrying at home.
I was also asked if I wanted to have a proper funeral for the baby, and I found this all a bit much to take. I was quite level headed about the whole thing until I spoke to them. So far I think they have made the whole thing worse. Just hope they are a bit better when I get in there.
I was not expecting this, I had a scan around 9 weeks (just to check dates) and there was a baby with a good heart beat. And I have had two healthy babies already.
I suppose I thought being nearly 14 weeks, having already had a scan and never having any problems before, I thought I was out of the risk stage.
I am booked in to have a medically managed miscarriage at the weekend (it was the earliest they could book me in). And I just feel in limbo... I am walking around with a baby I know will never be and I just want this to be over with.
I know I wont wait any time before I try for another (funnily enough this baby was not planned, I was on the mini-pill when I fell pregnant), but when I found out I was pregnant, I started planning for a baby, so now I feel I just need to get on and try for another.
I desperately hope the bleeding does not last too long, I know there is nothing I can do about it, but I think it will make the feeling of being in limbo last even longer.
I feel like 14 weeks is a long time to be pregnant, just to have to start again. The hospital were talking to me about what was going to happen and the doctor kept describing it as a 'large' pregnancy, I know the baby is only about 2 inches long at this stage, but I found her choice of words to be a bit scary, especially if I end up miscarrying at home.
I was also asked if I wanted to have a proper funeral for the baby, and I found this all a bit much to take. I was quite level headed about the whole thing until I spoke to them. So far I think they have made the whole thing worse. Just hope they are a bit better when I get in there.