hello everyone,
I am a member of a few groups but haven't posted for a while. My intro - I was told from 20 years old I would need ivf to conceive - I tried IVF once when I was 20 years old and the sperm and egg did not even fertilize - so the cycle was a bust before I even had the chance to be excited. I was 21 and decided that I would wait - and try again at a later date - we never did we just got on with life as you do - but I always secretly hoped it would be MY month and it never was. Anyhow 10 years later - never using precautions imagin my shock when one day after my boobs seemed to have hurt for ages yet my period hadn't arrived I took a clear blue digital test and it said positive 3 + weeks....I thought it must be a mistake and went to docs and pregnancy was confirmed....I had a lovely pregnancy but had to be induced 2 weeks after my due date then an emergency c section as cord was wrapped round babies neck - but I have the most wonderful 5 year old daughter as a result. I was happy with my lt and continued my life - I always would love a second child but was very content having my daughter after being told it would never happen. Then in September last year (2015) I got such a shock when I peed on a stick (as I nearly always doas have lots of internet cheapies) and saw a pink line - very faint but there after lots of negatives you notice the small changes, I took a digital clear blue and it confirmed I was pregnant 1-2 weeks - I went to doctors pregnancy was confirmed and I was ecstatic...I shuld have kept it quiet but after bleeding at 8 weeks and a trip to the hospital later I walked out clutching an 8 week scan picture and a letter to my doctor stating viable pregnancy. I told my daughter she was going to be a big sister and made big imaginary plans in my head. Everything was going well I was having a good pregnancy - lots of sickness but I loved every minute. I was scheduled for my 12 week scan on 27th September - I wasn't nervous just excited - it was a Friday and I dropped my daughter at school and went to the scan with my partner. Everything looked great but at the end the lady doing the scan told me that the baby had a 6.5mm nuchal fold and that meant that something somewhere was wrong...I broke into tears and was shocked - I was told to have a CVS to check for chromosome issues - The tests after 10 days came back negative and I was told we were having a boy. They then said that they would need to check theh babies heart at 20 weeks and wanted to send samples off for a micro array. I waited weeks for answers I could feel my baby kicking and growing and had even bought a few things - then on new years eve 2015 I had to go for a scan and results of micro array - I was told that my baby had an 8.5mb duplication of chromosome 22. they said it was extremely rare and they could not give me any answers - I scheduled an appointment with a specialist team and they told me that an 8.5mb duplication of 22.12 & 13 was unheard of but they could guarantee that my baby would have severe issues that ranged from dying before birt, dying shortly after birt, not being able to breath, not being able to function to being completely paralized with no brain or movement function. quite frankly they didn't know how bad it would be - but they knew with the size of the duplication it would be very bad. After lots of tears myself and partner decided to terminate the pregnancy - I was 20 weeks and it was the most horrific and upsetting experience of my life. myelf and partner were tested to see if we were carriers of anything but we wernt we were just very very unlucky.
After a check up with hospital I was told I was "physically" ready to trry again - mentally was a different story - after a short course of anti depressents I started to feel somewhat human again.
I then decided I would love another child - the pregnancy I lost just just made me be honest that I would love another child - so I decided to get serious and bought a clear blue advanced fertility monitor.
My cycles were a little wacky at first had af then af 23 days later after my normal cycles were always 31 days. First month of using the monitor I got highs from CD 9 until af - then second time I got a peak on cd 13 and 14 (march 2016) so BD on both days. I have been testing for pregnancy since 9dpo on internet cheapies and have had some blanks, and some lines that made me think I may get a positive result - but it was a pure mixture - one day slight line, next total blank. Then imagin my disbelief when today I did a pregnancy test on the clear blue advance fertility monitor and it was positive - it actually brought up a huge plus sign with PREGNANT on it...I couldn't believe it...Ive been using pressed fertility monitor, CQ10 pills and serrapeptse this month on top of folic acid and thought I had cracked it - then low and be hold on the same day I get my period at 3pm??? Im now bleeding and have took 2 more internet cheapies which are bfn....I cant believe it - im so gutted and sad.....
Im not really expecting any replies just needed and outlet - I hope all you ladies trying for your much longed for babies get BFPs very soon
Lots of love to you all
I am a member of a few groups but haven't posted for a while. My intro - I was told from 20 years old I would need ivf to conceive - I tried IVF once when I was 20 years old and the sperm and egg did not even fertilize - so the cycle was a bust before I even had the chance to be excited. I was 21 and decided that I would wait - and try again at a later date - we never did we just got on with life as you do - but I always secretly hoped it would be MY month and it never was. Anyhow 10 years later - never using precautions imagin my shock when one day after my boobs seemed to have hurt for ages yet my period hadn't arrived I took a clear blue digital test and it said positive 3 + weeks....I thought it must be a mistake and went to docs and pregnancy was confirmed....I had a lovely pregnancy but had to be induced 2 weeks after my due date then an emergency c section as cord was wrapped round babies neck - but I have the most wonderful 5 year old daughter as a result. I was happy with my lt and continued my life - I always would love a second child but was very content having my daughter after being told it would never happen. Then in September last year (2015) I got such a shock when I peed on a stick (as I nearly always doas have lots of internet cheapies) and saw a pink line - very faint but there after lots of negatives you notice the small changes, I took a digital clear blue and it confirmed I was pregnant 1-2 weeks - I went to doctors pregnancy was confirmed and I was ecstatic...I shuld have kept it quiet but after bleeding at 8 weeks and a trip to the hospital later I walked out clutching an 8 week scan picture and a letter to my doctor stating viable pregnancy. I told my daughter she was going to be a big sister and made big imaginary plans in my head. Everything was going well I was having a good pregnancy - lots of sickness but I loved every minute. I was scheduled for my 12 week scan on 27th September - I wasn't nervous just excited - it was a Friday and I dropped my daughter at school and went to the scan with my partner. Everything looked great but at the end the lady doing the scan told me that the baby had a 6.5mm nuchal fold and that meant that something somewhere was wrong...I broke into tears and was shocked - I was told to have a CVS to check for chromosome issues - The tests after 10 days came back negative and I was told we were having a boy. They then said that they would need to check theh babies heart at 20 weeks and wanted to send samples off for a micro array. I waited weeks for answers I could feel my baby kicking and growing and had even bought a few things - then on new years eve 2015 I had to go for a scan and results of micro array - I was told that my baby had an 8.5mb duplication of chromosome 22. they said it was extremely rare and they could not give me any answers - I scheduled an appointment with a specialist team and they told me that an 8.5mb duplication of 22.12 & 13 was unheard of but they could guarantee that my baby would have severe issues that ranged from dying before birt, dying shortly after birt, not being able to breath, not being able to function to being completely paralized with no brain or movement function. quite frankly they didn't know how bad it would be - but they knew with the size of the duplication it would be very bad. After lots of tears myself and partner decided to terminate the pregnancy - I was 20 weeks and it was the most horrific and upsetting experience of my life. myelf and partner were tested to see if we were carriers of anything but we wernt we were just very very unlucky.
After a check up with hospital I was told I was "physically" ready to trry again - mentally was a different story - after a short course of anti depressents I started to feel somewhat human again.
I then decided I would love another child - the pregnancy I lost just just made me be honest that I would love another child - so I decided to get serious and bought a clear blue advanced fertility monitor.
My cycles were a little wacky at first had af then af 23 days later after my normal cycles were always 31 days. First month of using the monitor I got highs from CD 9 until af - then second time I got a peak on cd 13 and 14 (march 2016) so BD on both days. I have been testing for pregnancy since 9dpo on internet cheapies and have had some blanks, and some lines that made me think I may get a positive result - but it was a pure mixture - one day slight line, next total blank. Then imagin my disbelief when today I did a pregnancy test on the clear blue advance fertility monitor and it was positive - it actually brought up a huge plus sign with PREGNANT on it...I couldn't believe it...Ive been using pressed fertility monitor, CQ10 pills and serrapeptse this month on top of folic acid and thought I had cracked it - then low and be hold on the same day I get my period at 3pm??? Im now bleeding and have took 2 more internet cheapies which are bfn....I cant believe it - im so gutted and sad.....
Im not really expecting any replies just needed and outlet - I hope all you ladies trying for your much longed for babies get BFPs very soon
Lots of love to you all
