why this happening again?

[TaylorsMummyx]

i need some advice. please dont judge me.

When i had my son, my mum died when he was 3months old. I was 19 years old a mum of 2, my oldest 18months.
I had awful depression. I couldnt stop crying, i wanted to kill myself, id scream at the kids, i hated dexter. I couldnt cope.

i got better with tablets, i went postnatal depression group.
when dexter was 2, i got kicked out of group for new mummys. I thought i was fixed so i stopped tablets. Lifes been good, got engaged, went newyork ect.

and now its back with vengence. i cant cope. i want to curl up and die with my babies. i hate life. i cry every single day, but act all happy when hubs home. i feel let down by everyone. I have no money, im being done for benefit fraud from when i was ill. i have no life, im stuck in 24/7. i have no friends, no way of making friends, and no family.

im sat here sobbing, for no reason.my house is a mess because i cant be arsed to do it.

i adore my babies, i cry because i love them so much, but iv let them down. big time. i dont know what to do anymore.

 

[sophxx]

You need to go to the doctors and speak to them. It sounds like your isolated. Is there any local groups you could go to to meet new friends or any local depression groups.

 

[R_x]

You need to go to the doctors and speak to them. It sounds like your isolated. Is there any local groups you could go to to meet new friends or any local depression groups.

I agree with this see a dr and try to find some new groups. Also maybe try taking to your hubby?

 

[special_kala]

Call your doctor/HV hun, they will help you get back on track

 

[TaylorsMummyx]

iv tried groups. there all the same people who go to them. i made friends with a group last year, and the "new bff" went on to try it on with hubs.

so dont get on with them at all.

im going drs tomorrow. its coming up to my mums anniversary too.

 

[Redfraggle]

You poor thing.

I'm glad you have a doctors appointment. I hope he can sort something out for you. It will get better. Hang in there.

 

[Wriggley]

you poor thing i hope the doc can help you

 

[Lellow]

Oh hun - Sophxx gave brill advice.

You need to relay this on to your doctor, he needs to know how your feeling.

You also need to confide in your fiancee too, he'll understand and will be able to support you

xxx

 

[Tegans Mama]

I agree with the others, go to the drs hun they should help you

 

[smileyfaces]

xxxx

 

[Bevziibubble]

Aww hun, I'm sorry you are going through this
I hope the doctor will be able to help, don't be afraid to tell them everything, they won't judge and they will get you the support you need.
I hope you're feeling better soon

 

[TaylorsMummyx]

I got some tablets, go to go back weekly

 

[Redfraggle]

I hope they help

 

[TaylorsMummyx]

So oh hasnt even asked how I get on!

 

[Redfraggle]

Men are knobs. It's not that they don't care they just expect us to tell them anything they think we need them to know.

 

[Mummy2B21]

I hope they help hunny xx

 

[TaylorsMummyx]

He said im faking it, and theres always something wrong with me

 

[mummy3]

I'm sorry he's reacting like that Dont take it to heart and keep up with the docs hun

 

[Bevziibubble]

I hope the tablets help. I can't believe how unsupportive and negative your OH is being! Please don't take it to heart what he said because it's not true, and you did the right thing by going to the doctors for help. Hope you are feeling better soon

 

[R_x]