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Over the years myself and OH had a definitive number of children we'd like! It fluctuated! After our first (now 7 years old) he said that our son was enough for him! My broodiness however had other ideas, we suffered a shock MC in January 2014 and it destroyed my soul! After this he slowly came around to the idea of maybe one more? We began TTC in 2016, by 2017 I was pregnant with our daughter who was born 20 months ago now! Though the pregnancy was frought with problem after problem..obstetric cholestasis, cytomegalovirus, gallstones etc! And of course an elective c section at 38+3, I still yearn for maybe one more..like a last hurrah! I turned 30 in June this year and OH was 33 this year..I realise now that time will not be on my side for much longer and that scares me!
I have broached the subject to gauge a reaction from OH, just one more I say? It's a flat out no :/
I lay awake at night...thoughts swilling around my head and I just cant seem to shake the thought! I dont want to live in the land of what if? And then come around to doing something about it and then realising I'm too old! I get it, our finances will be well and truly pushed and stretched to their limits..but God.. tiny baby though! Makes it worth it![Heart <3 <3](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/PurpleHeart.gif)
Just one more? Even if it is when Lilith starts school (2 years from now) I'd give anything for just one more!
I feel like I'm trapped!![Sad :( :(](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/icon_sad.gif)
I have broached the subject to gauge a reaction from OH, just one more I say? It's a flat out no :/
I lay awake at night...thoughts swilling around my head and I just cant seem to shake the thought! I dont want to live in the land of what if? And then come around to doing something about it and then realising I'm too old! I get it, our finances will be well and truly pushed and stretched to their limits..but God.. tiny baby though! Makes it worth it
![Heart <3 <3](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/PurpleHeart.gif)
Just one more? Even if it is when Lilith starts school (2 years from now) I'd give anything for just one more!
I feel like I'm trapped!
![Sad :( :(](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/icon_sad.gif)