Hi Ladies!
So how is everyone feeling??
I'm 36 weeks today and starting to feel like I'm in the final stretch!
Since I was on last, I've been diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes and have become an expert on it.... so if you've any questions, ask away!!
AFM: I am starting to feel overwhelmed.... all the prenatals, vitamins, supplements, exercises, monitoring my blood sugars, drinking enough water, moving enough, not enough, tired, awake.... sheesh! it's a lot of mental power when all I want to think about is meeting my little one on the outside!!
I am getting annoyed with some of the health professionals.... my midwives are great, but I've had to consult with an obstetrician and had to interact with hospital and clinic staff regarding the GD and I really take issue with the way they say things.... they don't just give me the information about my pregnancy, my body, my baby.... they say things like it's a done deal....
According to them I WILL have an overly large baby, my baby WILL get hypoglycemia after birth, my baby WILL have jaundice after birth, I WILL have to have an insulin drip during my labour, I am not allowed to have a home birth any longer..... I WILL have to be induced at 37/38 weeks because of my ginormous baby.... My placenta WILL stop working at 38 weeks..... and the list goes on....
the thing is.... these are all risks, but they are risks associated with 'UNCONTROLLED' GD..... my GD is very carefully controlled.... my baby hasn't yet measured Big for Gestational Age and my placenta has appeared fine in every ultrasound....
I would think that when things are well controlled then these risks become far less severe.... if existent at all.... but they don't talk to me like that.... it's all about making me feel worried and scared and their alarmist information is not empowering for me.... it took a lot of research, questioning, knowing my body, being informed, for me to advocate for my own choices.... I'm willing to make some concessions, but I am not willing to give up my right to make my own choices about my baby and my body.... *sigh*
I hate how they make it all sound so dire.... IF it was uncontrolled.... IF there was evidence that these risks applied to me, THEN I would consider some of these strategies.... but I NEED to go into labour naturally, and I NEED to make my own choices about what that will look like....
I go for another ultrasound on Monday to see how the placenta is doing and for them to see how big the baby is getting.... then another consult with an obstetrician the week following and then I find out if I'm 'allowed' to go into labour naturally or if they will be pressing me for an induction.... *sigh*
As if I didn't have enough to think about, right??
How is everyone else doing?