1 year ago today.... 29th April 09

[NickyT75]

Since my life got turned upside down

Some of you will remember I suffered from PROM & went into premature labour, unexpectedly delivering my beautiful baby girl Sophie when she was too small to survive

In total shock I stood there holding her & will never forget the moment I realised she was alive, her little legs & arms waving around I'll never forgive myself for not keeping her safe

We wanted this baby sooo much and now its 12 months later & we still arent pregnant again

What did I do to deserve this? Why havent I got pregnant again? I feel so worthless right now

cant believe how hard it has hit me this morning I feel really sick & panicky


Sorry for the self pitying xx

 

[Staceyxxx]

Awww so sorry hun

 

[dan-o]

So sorry nicky, thinking of you on this sad day.

Sending you hugs

 

[staceymy]

Im so sorry. Thinking you today.
Huge hugs.
xxx

 

[sukisam]

I'm so sorry you lost Sophie, I lost my first baby Emily, went into labour at 24 weeks and she was born sleeping,
It's so unfair, the first anniversary is the worst and I'm so sorry you're going through this.
Sending you
I'm sorry you're not pregnant again, maybe when you're feeling stronger you could think about seeing your GP to talk.
It will get better after today, you'll be back to where you were last week, the anniversaries are always hard, I had the 10th anniversary last month and I still hate March but then I get back to normal again.
Have you got any mates/familyhubby around to cuddle you and give you chocolate?
Thinking of you today
xxxxx

 

[hayley x]

its not self pity at all, you lost your daughter and life is too cruel, it shouldnt happen, especially to those who deserve it most

I really hope you get your BFP soon, I hope you dont mind me saying this but maybe your daughter will help you be blessed with a baby when she knows your both truely ready?

Thinking of you and sending you lots of hugs xxxx

 

[Jkelmum]

xxx

 

[ChloesMummy]

x

 

[maddiwatts19]

its not slef-pittying hun.. you have every right to feel like this.
i am so sorry that this happened, and i am so sorry that your not pregnant again.
please remember that you are NOT worthless.. your one of the strongest women i know..
thinking of you and OH on this horrible day x

 

[DiddyDons]

Im so sorry babe it was Sophies birthday in Jan and it hit me pretty hard! If you ever want to chat im here! Im sure Sophie is having a great time in the fluffy clouds playing with her friends but of course she should be here with you and her daddy

Im not pregnant either a year on so I know how you feel! No one deservess this pain!

 

[CarCam]

I am so, so sorry.

I hope this day passes quickly so that you might feel better tomorrow.

Don't EVER give up hope!

 

[NickyT75]

Thanks for your kind words everyone

I've been to visit her grave & had a good cry so im feeling a little bit better now

She's been left some lovely birthday presents & I am so touched that people have been to visit her xx

 

[krissi]

Aww hunni there is nothing you could have done babes to protect her hun this was nature playing its cruelest tricks not that I expect that to give you any comfort today.

I am truly praying your BFP is just around the corner.

If you want to feel sorry for yourself you have every right to babes and don't let anyone tell you any different you have had hell to go through this past year, sending you big hugs xx

 

[NickyT75]

Thanks Krissi hun xx

 

[LeaArr]

big big big

 

[AppleBlossom]

honey x

 

[Alexas Mommy]