13 months since MMC and still nothing...

[Octavia]

Its been 13 months since I lost our baby still feel a bit rubbish about it because Im just not falling pregnant!
We already have two girls aged 3 and 4.5, I have endometriosis, sort of irregular periods but ovulation sticks are showing positive. We are using fertility gel and generally just enjoying each other but its not happening and Im starting to get concerned that my body doesnt want to let me have another baby... I know I need to relax but as each month passes Im feeling more and more like a failure...

Sorry for the rant... I just find it necessary to get stuff off my mind. Its worse that the young girl who lives near me has gotten pregnant with baby no:6 and my sister with baby no:8 - both 'accidents' yet when people want babies we struggle...
Everyone around me is pregnant and Im not. Its eating away at my soul.

 

[Redcat85]

I know what you mean about everyone being pregnant. I had my second loss last month and meanwhile one both of my sister in laws are having babies #2 and #3 this month. One of my best friends is one month ahead of where I was (pregnant) and just found out shes having a boy yesterday. I cant help but think that should be me next month! I have another friend who just had her 3rd in march and another friend due in sept. Its hard being around them and talking to them sometimes. I cant help but feel jealous and like life just isnt fair. It seems so easy for everyone else around me to get pregnant and have babies. I feel like they just take it for granted too like its nothing. Im very sorry for your loss and just wanted you to know, you are not alone.

 

[OmarsMum]

We are in the same boat. 13 months since the mmc, it seems that all those around me are either pregnant or had babies recently. Most of them are unplanned pregnancies.

My periods are not so regular, my cycles are 25-35 days long, I get positives on the ovulation sticks.

I know how you feel