3dp3dt...Going Crazy!!

[Minno]

Hi girls. 50 sticks lol! I don't even have one in the house. Actually, scratch that, I have an out of date frer from the times I stupidly still thought I might conceive naturally! So it must be about two years old at least lol
I am getting af pains too on and off. Keep doing the knicker check - do either of you do that? I really must stop as it's driving me crazy! Last time af arrived day before OTD, and then I got a positive and it just carried on for the next week. Chemical horrendous bleed as well so not looking forward to that again.

Where are you both at in your cycles? I am now 4dp5dt. What meds you both on? I am taking 10mg estrogen and 600mg utrogestan (progesterone) - hate that as the leakage makes me think I'm bleeding all the time! Arrgghhhh. Xx

 

[Sophie2000]

Hi Minno, I keep going to the toilet like a freak checking to see all is clear its crazy!! I'm just on 400mg progesterone twice a day.
Not to sure about the terminology of what 4dp5dt means? Let me know and I will try and work out where I'm at. X

 

[ababy4us]

I'm 7dp3dt so 10 days past ovulation. I am on 4mg of estrogen and 100mg 3x's a day of progesterone. Unfortunately, I had an hCG booster of 10,000iu right before transfer so I am getting positives on tests but they continue to be lighter everyday. Its getting closer to the time I will know for sure if this worked or failed and I am terrified. I also go and check all the time to make sure I'm not bleeding, its maddening.

 

[Sophie2000]

Yes same I'm 10 dpo......it's all I can think about its crazy!

 

[Minno]

What are we like?! Toilet checking is so not fun. I seem to be taking a bit more estrogen and less progesterone than both of you. I hate taking tablets and being on meds but I guess we have to be for a while anyway. Sophie, can't wait to hear your beta result on wed! Not too far away now xx

 

[ababy4us]

I also go on Wednesday. I go from being very positive to feeling negative about this cycle. Which may just be human nature after TTC for so long.

 

[Minno]

Will keep everything crossed for both of you for next week xx

 

[Sophie2000]

Thanks Minno
I'm up and down like a yoyo as well with having so many months of disappointment why do I think it will work this time I'm probably just kidding myself.

 

[ababy4us]

I'm just feeling exactly like AF is coming, acne breakouts and everything.

 

[Minno]

I am having a day of no symptoms whatsoever - feel absolutely normal. I'm not hopeful either x

 

[Minno]

Also we did assisted hatching and embryo glue and I bet it still hasn't worked.!

 

[Sophie2000]

Me too I know my body to well to think that this could be anything different. I keep telling myself to be more positive and it isn't over until AF shows...........

 

[Minno]

Hate to ask but what are your experiences of af after a failed cycle? Mine was pretty horrendous but actually that was cos it was a chemical and I was 5+1 at point of failure x

 

[Deepsea]

Can I join you girls on this crazy tww? I'm not quite as far along as you girls, today I'm 2dp5dt of 2 expanding blasts. I have absolutely no symptoms... I did a FET which might explain the lack of symptoms, but still a little cramping would be reassuring that something is going on down there. I'm on estrace 4mg daily and PIO 100 mg daily.

Minno, sorry your last transfer ended so badly. My failed cycle in February I just had a heavier bleed than normal. Although my normal AF is fairly light anyway. But I didn't have a chemical, just straight up BFN.

 

[ababy4us]

We also did AH and I'm sure it didn't work. Like Sophie said I know my body too well. Not to mention all of my positive feelings are gone. I had such high hopes and all dreams are gone today. Gosh I know that's so bad but I feel like even with perfect embryos my body just hates me.

Hi Deepsea! I hope you get your BFP.

 

[Minno]

Hiya deep sea and welcome. We've both had double blasto expanding blasts the. . How you feeling about prospect of twins?!
I know ladies on another thread who had zero symptoms and got bfp. I'm having a totally normal symptomless day today too. Ababy4us, I hear ya, but you're not out yet! Still a few days and you won't know until that test. I am sending positive vibes to all of us xxxx

 

[Deepsea]

Thanks Minno, makes me feel better to hear there are others out there with no symptoms. My miscarriage last year I had almost no symptoms up through the day I miscarried and all the doctors kept saying well that was your first clue things aren't going right....

And twins don't worry me. My sister has natural twins! If she can do it I can!

 

[Minno]

How are we all doing today? I'm symptomless again

 

[ababy4us]

Terrible. I'm 8dp3dt and swimming in a sea of BFNs. Its over. The only thing stopping my period from coming is the meds I know that for certain.

I have a friend who I met through this IVF cycle IRL and she is a day behind me and got a beautiful BFP this morning. I feel happy for her but I'm so hurt and jealous.

 

[Sophie2000]

Oh nooooo do you know for certain it's defo over this time...... It may be still too early to test.
That's why I don't want to test I'm scared that the result won't be good.
Still no AF yet for me but I just don't know, I'm sick of thinking about it all the time, I've had to get out the house for most of the day rather than sitting in thinking about it.
P.S I think it's normal to feel a bit Hurt and jealous, I've been in the same boat when my sister in law fell pregnant six months ago, I can barely face her at all and am avoiding family occasions, terrible I know but I can't help it.