ugh lets not even mention GREY I seemed to go grey over night after Ricky got hurt it was weird.
so how is everyone sorry I havent been on much been outside alot its been so hot I have to water all my flowers 3 times a day. I really got carried away with all the petunia seeds me and Jesse started Ive stuck them in every type of pot I could get my hands on and they are thirsty little buggers pretty when there in bloom though and Jesse is going through some stage I think the terrible twos just got worse when he hit three lol and Mason has been cranky seems like he has been trying to cut teeth for ages now and not a one in sight.
and then I had applied for disability for Ricky about a week ago Ive been on the phone and going to the dr office to get his medical records then yesterday a lady calls and tells him he has been denied based on the fact he makes to much money on workers comp he gets 329.00 a week after his child support is paid that is gonna stop July 15th and we will have no income so WTH and Im tired of people telling me to leave the kids with him and get a job I dont care to work at all and know they meen well but they just dont believe me when I say he cant take care of them I worry just leaving him for a hour or so his mind just isnt what it was before the accident he looses track of Jesse all the time when there outside then last night I had Jesse in the bath and he was getting Mason ready he turned around to get soemthing out of the crib forgot Mason was on the bed and Mason fell off I wouldnt make more then about 7.35 an hour and I would have to at least put one of the kids if not both in day care that runs about 150 a week per child around here not to mention I get hardly any sleep I dont know im just frustrated and agravated I guess it just seems like the weight of everything is all on my shoulders I have all the dr the nurses the workers comp people the lawyers all the paper work the scheduling of all the dr visits plus the kids dr appts I just feel like my brain never gets a rest sorry for ranting and rambling on its just been one of those days here