i want news di!!!!!!!!!
rachel if u want my honest honest honest opinion i wouldnt have gotten pregnant when i did. its been far too hard and i feel like such a bad mummy for struggling to look after and play with cameron. its heartbreaking. i was so so tired and sick in the first few months and cam was only 6months or something so it was real hard. and now im having a lot of problems and im not ment to pick cam up, push the pram or take pram up the stairs etc. i had to call my mil yesterday to get her to take cam out for a few hours as my hips and back were in agony and i was having contractions. i felt so so bad
im having a hard time at moment so might just be biased
lol just trying to be honest. i dont know what it will be like wen adam arrives though.
well girls today has been the most stressful day of my pregnancy
i went in for my weekly monitoring and i felt great. was really really happy, chatting away to midwifes quite happy. i started to wonder why i was on monitor for so long but though they were prob just busy. midwife came back and gave me some lucazade. i was a bit confused coz adam was kicking loads but drank it anyway. ten mins later mw came back with some wine gums so i had a few of them too. they started to panic so in turn i started to panic. they explained to me that he was having to mny decelerations and not any accelerations at all
thats exactly what happened wih cam. his heartrate then started dipping and alarms started sounding. by this point i text my mum and she got ready to come through to hosp. they said to me that i was to go for emergency scan and then come back. i asked what was happening as i was getting really worried. they said if the trace didnt improve i was getting admitted and would be getting the injection to mature his lungs and i wouldnt be leaving hosp still pregnant. started completely freaking out so txt jo and stressed her out lol i had scan and everything looked ok so they sent me for lunch and a lil walk about. came back 40mins later and went back on monitor for another hour and a half!! bloody long time i tell u lol at one point i had 6 midwifes standing round staring at trace and i could see the worry on everyones face. my mum arrived shortly followed by garry (he had called his mum to get cam and came through) they told me it still wasnt looking good at all. they called for a doctor and it just happened to be my really crappy consultant
he said he wasnt to worried and quite happy for me to go home. all the midwifes were staring at him in disbelief so was i. he said i have to come in on tuesday for a scan and more monitoring and take it from there. i could bloody choke him!!! he was my onsultant with cameron too andtold me everything was fine just days before he was born. he was quite clearly ill!! i am so so so stressed and i hate my consultant. i wish it had been someone else on as i would have felt more comfortable. i am absoultely shitting myself that him wanting to wait longer is gonna prove bad for adam
seriously seriously stressed out
i dont know what to do ladies. amy advice? xxxx