5 years of trying/NTNP, multiple BFP. Excited. Terrified beyond belief.

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My husband and I have been married for 5 years, hoping to conceive the entire time. I gave up actively trying a few years ago after my mom passed away, which was followed by my FIL within the next 6 months, followed by my dad a year after that.

It took several years to get a faint positive. And then, just like that, it was no more. I actually started bleeding ON Mother's Day with the worst cramps I've ever had. I've gotten a faint test or two since then -- still no baby, obviously.

Last week, I was diagnosed with a UTI. I was also technically "late" for my period, following a normal cycle, which I don't have. I was also super irritable and had cramps all week.

I got SO mad. First of all, I can't seem to have kids. Second of all, this was my 4th UTI in as many months. Third of all, I'm supposed to be getting my period and all of these symptoms overlap with each other! I could be cramping because I might be pregnant (LOL as if), or because I could be getting my period (whatever), or because my UTI is getting worse and becoming a full-blown infection. Hooray, said no one. I took a test a week or two ago and got a negative -- hadn't tried since.

Well, I had to go on a business road trip. Had some really weird things going on, including boobs hurting, feeling dizzy after light exercise, things like that. "Okay, great, I'm going to have to go to urgent care when I get home because I'm probably dying right now. Okay. This is fine. I'm fine. I'm only not drinking because I still have to work and travel."

On a whim, I decided to take a test as soon as I got home. I was kind of hoping it would be, kind of figured it would be like any of the other hundreds (literally, hundreds) of tests I've taken.

Uhh. Nope. Not really. Kind of really not really. Not only did a line appear right away, a very VERY dark line appeared. RIGHT away. In the middle of the afternoon. UMM?? "Honey... ??? You know that UTI I'm taking medicine for... ?? There's a... Complication."

I called a nurse hotline right away because, heck, antibiotics? Pregnancy? Is this safe? She told me to go to an urgent care anyway (doctors were all closed) to make sure everything was fine and I could keep taking the medication. So I did. They had me pee in a cup. POSITIVE. Two hours after peeing on a stick at home. IN THE MIDDLE OF THE EVENING.

I took a test on one of the fancy sticks again last night. Pregnant. Peed on another stick this morning. Pregnant. Well. Heck. This is real. This is really real. This is really a thing that I am now. A pregnant woman. I am pregnant.

But I am also terrified. I remember what it was like before and I'm just beyond scared that my body can't really do what it needs to in order to keep this going. I'm so excited, like I am just bursting at the seams with everything I have to do (it's been on my mind for FIVE YEARS). But I'm also so scared to start planning anything, scared to be excited.

I don't have an appointment yet - again, all the doctors are closed. But I'm going to make one as soon as I can.

In the meanwhile, I had to share all of these feelings. Holy cow. Me. A pregnant lady.
 
Ahhh congrats! I know it’s terrifying and wonderful all at once. I hope this is a bit of good news and sun breaking in on your path <3
 
Congratulations hun!! So happy for you!! :happydance:
 
Amazing and congratulations
Wooohooooo. I know it's scary but yes you are indeed pregnant and I pray you have a very happy and healthy 9 months.
 
Aww so happy for you hun, took me and DH to fall pregnant I know its nerve wracking but seriously ENJOY every minute of it! Screaming CONGRATULATIONS
 
I can’t inagine! I’d be terrified too :) and excited! It’s funny bc I was just kind of going through same thing where I went to urgent care on Monday thinking I was getting a kidney infection. They said everything looked good and my back doesn’t hurt in that spot anymore. But yes the symptoms all overlap so I didn’t know what’s going on!! I’m 5 days late with BFNs on pee tests... oh well!! Congrats :)
 
Oh wait- can I ask - obviously since you were diagnosed with UTI, they did a pee test? And you were already late yet at that time it showed not pregnant?
 

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