A bit of a rant..a bit of a rave

[plumplump]

My God I feel completely like rubbish the past week or so. I MC in January and this has been our first proper month ever of ttc. I think the is due and I have been getting a bit in a mess with charting and trying to at the right time etc etc.
I feel like a complete state and that my insides are throbbing with pain just wanting to be pregnant again.
I thought I was getting better and dealing with what had happened but I have accepted that this is prob not the case - went out on sat night for a friends 50 bday. A girl I worked with had her baby the day I lost mine and my way of dealing with that was to get horrifibly drunk - I can hands down say I have never ever ever been drunk like that in my life.
What the hell is wrong with me - I feel like I should be getting on with things already but instead I feel like I'm dying inside.
grump grump grump grump grump
Does it ever get any easier?

 

[rachjim98]

Maybe I am not the right one to be responding.. I got Drunk last night after a blow out with family members.. blah blah blah.. I have found myself turning to alcohol a lot here lately, I guess it's a numbing mechanism... But in the end it just makes it worse because what you are feeling is still there in the Morning. not only that but you feel like crap warmed over from drinking to much.

It dose get easier, small steps sweetie, you will get there it's going to take time. And stop being down on yourself for grieving the only way you know how.

So sorry for your loss and I am thinking of you

 

[Jkelmum]

Sorry ive no advice but sendin xxxx

 

[plumplump]

Do you know something...I really feel like I would be lost without the support you get on here you are the nicest bunch.

 

[pennypoptart]

oh hun, sorry to hear that you're feeling so down. Have you read the guidance notes from fertility friend? You can also try the sperm meets egg plan:

https://www.pregnancyloss.info/sperm_meets_egg_plan.htm which although looks like hard work, it may take some of the pressure off charting etc.

It will happen again, PMA and all that. Just remember that each month you have a 1 in 4 chance of the spermies meeting the eggy... so it's not over until the shows her face.

Our time will come to have lovely bumps!

Hope you feel cheerier soon x

 

[Aria]

An occasional night of getting plastered with alcohol is okay, but if it turns into a regular even, you'll need to get help. Losing your baby didn't happen that long ago. So don't be so hard on yourself for not being over it. It's still raw. It will take a while, but will get easier. It probably won't ever go away completely, but you will get to the point where you can function and even be happy most of the time. I promise.

 

[2ndtimelucky]

Im so desperate to get my
and you will too huni

for you

 

[Chilli]

You kindly told me to take it easy on myself and it looks like you need to too. It's SO hard I know and every day throws up new things to deal with and emotions you never thought you'd feel, but we are all on a journey and I too give thanks that I have all the wonderful girls here to support me. Give yourself a break - try to smile even though its hard.