advice needed, please

[broodylocket]

hi all, im new.

last year i miscarried and i keep on thinking of what i could of had. when i was 18 (now 21) i was forced into going through a abortion(which i so regret)by my partner at the time, his whole family pressured me and now since my fiance and I miscarried last year, im freaking out and i seem to cry when i see little babies(would of been around these days was my due date)

i feel so alone and i seem to cry at anything to do with babies, i dont know what to do as i really want to start trying for a baby but i just dont know what to do. ive been on the implant for 7 months and its been my first period for that time and i cant believe how stupid i feel.

 

[thumbshoes]

Hon, don't feel stupid! How you are feeling is completely normal.

While I can't say that I know how you're feeling I do what it has been like for me, struggling through my own loss. I lost my first pregnancy in October 2008 and I still on a daily basis think about what could have been. Just today I was telling DH that if I was still pregnant I'd be more than showing and would have started working on the nursery. When I see co-workers bringing in their babies I get all stiff and find a reason to leave... I sometimes even get angry hearing everyone coo an awe over the little one. Just this week I came home for lunch just so I could cry!

It just doesn't seem fair sometimes and the innocence of pregnancy is lost forever, I just hate that!

There really is nothing to say that can make it better, I know. But stick around, there is an amazing support system here and it helps to just talk about it with other women who have had to deal with their losses.

 

[broodylocket]

thanks, i just keep on blaming myself about it. yeah it seems good round here, that why i joined.

 

[orange-sox]

Oh sweetheart, I've lost two babies now, and I constantly think about what could have been...

I know that sometimes life seems very bleak, but you have to hold on in there as best you can, we're all here for you

There's nothing wrong with crying, especially around significant times like your due date, it helps to let all the stress and grief out with a good cry, or scream and shout as the case seems to be with me right now.

Feel free to message me anytime you want if you need a chat x

 

[broodylocket]

thanks, its around my due date, i feel weak and i am not good at explaining how i feel, im shutting out my OH and i dont want to, but its the only way i learnt how to cope before.