.. Been browsing here for a while now - id like to share my story and get some advice too.
I have 4 children - 2g 1b 1g - so I am very fortunate I have both genders.
My boy was supposed to be my last, we only wanted 3 children - my 4th pregnancy was unplanned so emotionally not ready - when I had my 20wk scan I was told girl. I had gd all way through rest of pregnancy because in my head 2boys 2girls was the 'perfect family'! I cried a lot - couldn't speak to anyone about it just hated every moment of pregnancy.
At birth there was complications and we almost lost her. Then the realisation came on how precious that little life was to me. I felt so bad I hated myself - she is now a healthy 3 year old and the joy she brings to me is tremendous - and I'm in good place too emotionally.
I'm now at the point where I would love another one so broody been like this for a while (this is someone who only wanted 3 lol) - I'd still love a boy so much -but know it could be a girl and im fine with that. But I'm scared really scared that although I'm thinking rationally now what happens if I get preg and with hormones n everything I go back to feeling the way I did last preg.
What would you do? Do I not try to avoid gd - but if I don't try will I always regret the decision. I'm 37 so can't really afford to wait too long.
Hubby is happy with family we have - he never understood my gd - or my desire for another one but he's happy to go along with whatever I decide.
I'm just hoping someone on here can relate to this and help me decide wether trying for another pregnancy is a good idea or not?
I have 4 children - 2g 1b 1g - so I am very fortunate I have both genders.
My boy was supposed to be my last, we only wanted 3 children - my 4th pregnancy was unplanned so emotionally not ready - when I had my 20wk scan I was told girl. I had gd all way through rest of pregnancy because in my head 2boys 2girls was the 'perfect family'! I cried a lot - couldn't speak to anyone about it just hated every moment of pregnancy.
At birth there was complications and we almost lost her. Then the realisation came on how precious that little life was to me. I felt so bad I hated myself - she is now a healthy 3 year old and the joy she brings to me is tremendous - and I'm in good place too emotionally.
I'm now at the point where I would love another one so broody been like this for a while (this is someone who only wanted 3 lol) - I'd still love a boy so much -but know it could be a girl and im fine with that. But I'm scared really scared that although I'm thinking rationally now what happens if I get preg and with hormones n everything I go back to feeling the way I did last preg.
What would you do? Do I not try to avoid gd - but if I don't try will I always regret the decision. I'm 37 so can't really afford to wait too long.
Hubby is happy with family we have - he never understood my gd - or my desire for another one but he's happy to go along with whatever I decide.
I'm just hoping someone on here can relate to this and help me decide wether trying for another pregnancy is a good idea or not?