Hi all. Am new to this, but am in a pickle and just need advice, so will put it all down and hope for some help.sorry for the massive post.
I am currently 36 weeks pregnant...... which is amazing as for what seems like years i have never fallen, and i have had enough unprotected sex to have been caught out.
Anyway, i had a very bad time in my life when i was drinking and not being careful with men, im very ashamed now as i was married at the time, but i have to live with that, i slept with someone unprotected around about march april last year, i wish i knew exact dates but i dont.
However, i was found with an ovarian cyst, and had surgery on the 20th june to remove it, and lo and behold, i fell pregnant ´very soon after, the midwife thinks i concieved on the 1st july...... and thankfully i had only been with my husband.
Now i am happier than i have ever been ,it seems all my troubles have gone, me and my husband are on track for a fantatsic life, and i feel so ashamed of my past but all that matters is now, i dont even drink so i wont ever lose track again as drink problems are rife in my family.
anyway, the only worry is everything is so perfect im just waiting for something to go wrong, and because of the guilt i keep thinking what if by some act of madness the baby isnt my husbands??? even though i concieved in july after my surgery, what if the other mans sperm stayed in my system and did it....?!!!! or if they are all wrong and i was pregnant during the surgery, but then surely they would of known..... i am sure its just the guilt, but i want to just move one anbd be happy but everytime i think of my son coming i worry, because it would kill me and my husband if my stupid mistake costs our future.... i only hope the midwife is right and i fell after my surgery which surely would only mean its my husbands??? sorry for the massive post, please any response would be reaasuring so i can enjoy the rest of my pregnancy and life thankyou xx
I am currently 36 weeks pregnant...... which is amazing as for what seems like years i have never fallen, and i have had enough unprotected sex to have been caught out.
Anyway, i had a very bad time in my life when i was drinking and not being careful with men, im very ashamed now as i was married at the time, but i have to live with that, i slept with someone unprotected around about march april last year, i wish i knew exact dates but i dont.
However, i was found with an ovarian cyst, and had surgery on the 20th june to remove it, and lo and behold, i fell pregnant ´very soon after, the midwife thinks i concieved on the 1st july...... and thankfully i had only been with my husband.
Now i am happier than i have ever been ,it seems all my troubles have gone, me and my husband are on track for a fantatsic life, and i feel so ashamed of my past but all that matters is now, i dont even drink so i wont ever lose track again as drink problems are rife in my family.
anyway, the only worry is everything is so perfect im just waiting for something to go wrong, and because of the guilt i keep thinking what if by some act of madness the baby isnt my husbands??? even though i concieved in july after my surgery, what if the other mans sperm stayed in my system and did it....?!!!! or if they are all wrong and i was pregnant during the surgery, but then surely they would of known..... i am sure its just the guilt, but i want to just move one anbd be happy but everytime i think of my son coming i worry, because it would kill me and my husband if my stupid mistake costs our future.... i only hope the midwife is right and i fell after my surgery which surely would only mean its my husbands??? sorry for the massive post, please any response would be reaasuring so i can enjoy the rest of my pregnancy and life thankyou xx