Afraid of history repeating itself!

[SuperKat]

Ugh..I'm starting to freak out. I had a MMC 2 years ago, and had my rainbow baby...and am now pregnant again. I have my u/s on Monday and am so afraid of history repeating itself. This pregnancy feels like deja vu for the one I lost...All of my babies have been planned, EXCEPT for the one I lost...at first with that pregnancy, I was upset that I was pregnant, I wasn't prepared for it, I had too many things going on to be pregnant too, but then a couple of days later I came around, then was excited about it...only to lose it a couple of months later....and this pregnancy was exactly the same. I freaked out at first because we were done, I've already had 4 c-sections and was afraid to have more, now of course, I am thrilled, so I am afraid of going to that appointment on Monday and having history repeat itself. Ughh.....this sucks!

 

[sandrab]

Try not too worry as I know it's difficult

I have had 3 previous MMC in past year and now pregnant again had a scan on Tuesday thought I was 6 weeks but only measuring 5w4days so back on Tuesday to see if we can see heartbeat

I feel like this pregnancy is similar to my last but trying to stay positive

Prayers are with you xxx

 

[SuperKat]

Try not too worry as I know it's difficult

I have had 3 previous MMC in past year and now pregnant again had a scan on Tuesday thought I was 6 weeks but only measuring 5w4days so back on Tuesday to see if we can see heartbeat

I feel like this pregnancy is similar to my last but trying to stay positive

Prayers are with you xxx

Thank you so much for responding to my post!

Oh man, so sorry to hear about your m/c's!! I can't imagine going through that 3 times! Being 6 weeks, and having the baby measure 5w4days actually seems great, those babies catch up quick at that point, so you would be amazed at how quick you can catch up, or even pass that 6 week mark. I will say prayers that you get to see the heart beat on Tuesday!

I started having a pinkish/brown discharge a couple of days ago, and went in and saw the baby's heart beat- it was great, but i don't feel totally satisfied yet, i have my fingers crossed that I will get another peek on Monday! Hang in there!!!

 

[FeLynn]

a loss is never easy, I have heard that the chances are low if you miscarried and had a healthy baby afterwards. I am truely terrified to get pregnant again. I had 3 loss in 8 months after having healthy babies. Good luck hun try not to stress I think because you got your rainbow that your chances are good for a healthy sticky baby.

 

[SuperKat]

Thank you so much FeLynn for your response! I am so sorry to hear about your losses!! I really hope you are right! I went in to have a u/s the other day because I was spotting and did get to see the heartbeat, but I don't feel like I am out of the clear yet. I have an appointment tomorrow though and am hoping I get another peak! I could understand why you are terrified to get pregnant again, having repeat miscarriages would have that effect on me too =( Have they done any testing to try to see what is going on? I know that with my first one, the doctor said they usually wait until you have 3 before they do any testing, which just seems insane and unfair to me! My sister had 3 m/c's in a row and they found out that her progesterone was low, so a simple rx from them in the beginning could have prevented her from going through the following 2. Just doesn't seem right at all!

 

[Cata]

I'm so very sorry that you had to go through a loss

I guess we have all been in similar places... being scared of the story repeating itself is one of the worst feelings.

have faith that your baby is safe and that everything will be ok I hope you find peace of mind after your scan

I wish you a happy and very very healthy pregnancy!!

 

[SuperKat]

I'm so very sorry that you had to go through a loss

I guess we have all been in similar places... being scared of the story repeating itself is one of the worst feelings.

have faith that your baby is safe and that everything will be ok I hope you find peace of mind after your scan

I wish you a happy and very very healthy pregnancy!!

Thank you so much for your kind words! I'm sad that you too, know what I am going through and am sorry for your losses

I did get a second scan today, the doctor said that I have a happy baby, the baby was moving around a lot. I am now at 10 weeks, which put me right where I was when I lost the baby that I lost a couple of years ago, so i feel like I am finally able to relax! (for now, at least! lol)

 

[sandrab]

That's great news x

 

[Cata]

I'm so very sorry that you had to go through a loss

I guess we have all been in similar places... being scared of the story repeating itself is one of the worst feelings.

have faith that your baby is safe and that everything will be ok I hope you find peace of mind after your scan

I wish you a happy and very very healthy pregnancy!!

Thank you so much for your kind words! I'm sad that you too, know what I am going through and am sorry for your losses

I did get a second scan today, the doctor said that I have a happy baby, the baby was moving around a lot. I am now at 10 weeks, which put me right where I was when I lost the baby that I lost a couple of years ago, so i feel like I am finally able to relax! (for now, at least! lol)

Yay for a great scan!!!

I'm so glad that everything was right on track! now you get to take a deep breath and relax a bit Now every day will just get better and better.

Very happy for you hun. Many blessings!

 

[SuperKat]

Thank you girls!! I am definitely relieved!!!

 

[dollface85]

I know how you feel, we had a MC 2 yrs ago as well, it was a surprise and we were completely unprepared! Sometimes I feel like our negativity in the beginning is what caused things to go wrong, even though I know thats not the case.
This time around it was our first cycle of NTNP and we really were not expecting to get pg so quickly so we were very surprised! I also felt that since again this was not really planned, that everything is gonna go wrong. This time we did move pass the stress stage very quickly because both DH and I KNEW we wanted this baby more than anything.

Thankfully this time around I felt different which means I actually had noticeable symptoms past 5 wks, and at week 6 nausea hit hard core. But I also worried thinking that these symptoms were just a cruel joke and that I am gonna MC. Somehow the symptoms did carry me through our scan at 8+2 where we saw a beautiful baby with a strong hb. Next scan is 11+2 and even though I feel more confident now, I know I am going to be a nervous wreck that day.

 

[SuperKat]

Sometimes I feel like our negativity in the beginning is what caused things to go wrong, even though I know thats not the case. .

You nailed it on the head!!! That is what I think the fear was coming from with me as well! This current pregnancy started off the same way. I am thrilled about it now, but it took me a couple of days to accept it- not because i didn't want another baby, I'd have dozens of them if i could! It was because I was scared of a 5th c-section (I'm not now, but I was).

Congrat's to you on your pregnancy! It feels good to be almost in 2nd trimester!! Thank you for your response!

 

[runnergrl]

I know exactly what you mean. I have a healthy 18 month old son, and we were overjoyed to become pregnant the month we started TTC our second. baby was measuring small at first, but at 8 weeks, she had caught up and was measuring perfect with a beautiful heartbeat. two days before my 12 week scan I lost her I am terrified of getting pregnant again, as this loss was very hard physically (i lost a TON of blood) and very hard emotionally. I have read so many conflicting opinions on when its safe to try again and I am just sick about the bills we owe to the ER and my OB.. I feel like I am torn in half. i want to try again very much, but i am terrified bc if i lose another baby, i will blame myself (again).. Thank you for sharing your experience...it gives me hope

 

[SuperKat]

Awww, I'm sorry you went through that! My 11 month old is my rainbow baby (baby following a loss). Sometimes I like to think that it's the same soul, she just was waiting for a stronger body to be with me...I find comfort in that somehow. Having a miscarriage after the heartbeat has been detected is very rare- my doctor said it's around 1-2% chance, so while you were unlucky that time, you have a 98-99% chance of not having that happen, we trust those odds with birth control, right? Not sure if that helps at all, but looking at the numbers help me.

 

[runnergrl]

Awww, I'm sorry you went through that! My 11 month old is my rainbow baby (baby following a loss). Sometimes I like to think that it's the same soul, she just was waiting for a stronger body to be with me...I find comfort in that somehow. Having a miscarriage after the heartbeat has been detected is very rare- my doctor said it's around 1-2% chance, so while you were unlucky that time, you have a 98-99% chance of not having that happen, we trust those odds with birth control, right? Not sure if that helps at all, but looking at the numbers help me.

it does help. gives me TONS of hope.. Thank you!

 

[SuperKat]

You're welcome!!! I've found myself having to remind myself of the odds in my favor over and over again.