Its been awhile since I came here... I needed to focus on the positive things in life again... but, here I am just a few days from the dreaded 1st bday in heaven for Hadlee and I have become CONSUMED with everything and anything to do with her all over again. On the internet, I look at things like March of Dimes, FB pages like angel wings, I have it figured out to the day as of now she would have been (if born on due date) 6 months and 17 days old... probably about 17 lbs, most likely bald with a little bit of light brown hair and brown eyes like her big sister. I am feeling nervous about going to spend her bday IN A CEMETARY!!! Who the eff should EVER have to celebrate their childs first bday in a cemetary
This in turn is making me DESPERATE for my rainbow and it just isnt happening. We have been TTC since dec now and my cycles have gone insane. I am currently on cd48 and have NOT even ovulated yet
Never in my life have my cycles been like this, until nov 2011, one month before we started ttc. I have had ONE normal cycle since then.. the rest are a good 60 days long, and this current one will be longer as my LP is about 13 days so even if I ovulated today it would go past 60 days. UGH! WTF?!
Sorry just needed to moan a bit today.![Cry :cry: :cry:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/cry.gif)
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Sorry just needed to moan a bit today.
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