tinymumma
Mummy to a rainbow boy
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I finally did it, bit the bullet and left my husband. We have a two year old and I'm 19+2. Our relationship has been rocky (putting it mildly) for the very beginning. I made excuse for emotional/ mental and financial abuse because I know why he is the way he is. However 3 years on and nothing has changed. He refuses to get help, rarely goes to work. We are broke, drowning in debt. I'm not allowed to talk unless it's about him and how he's feeling. We have completely different parenting styles and I have just reached the point of no return. Love isn't enough anymore. I do love this man, with all of my heart but I love him. Not this narcissistic, selfish, immature and irresponsible person he has become. I've tried and tried and now I'm tired. So emotionally drained that I find it so hard to function most days.
As sad as I am, I know this is the right decision for my children. The hardest part though, I swore to myself it would never be like this. That I would never be like this. I am a young mum (20 years old) and now a single mum of two. I was proud of the fact that I was still with the fat he of my children and now I feel like I have failed. Just another idiot girl who had children young and will be judged accordingly. Even though I don't drink or do drugs, I haven't been out since my son was born (I don't even want to). I'm a good mum and nothing like the stigma but this felt like the one thing I could prove to the world that I'm not a failure and now it's happened... The thought of being with anyone else makes me want to vomit, I only want him but I just can't do it anymore. I can't live the rest of my stressing about money, about whether I'm being lied to, having my kids watch Daddy yell and scream and sometimes push mummy around. I know I've done the right thing and that I will get through this but I just can't shake feeling like a failure.
As sad as I am, I know this is the right decision for my children. The hardest part though, I swore to myself it would never be like this. That I would never be like this. I am a young mum (20 years old) and now a single mum of two. I was proud of the fact that I was still with the fat he of my children and now I feel like I have failed. Just another idiot girl who had children young and will be judged accordingly. Even though I don't drink or do drugs, I haven't been out since my son was born (I don't even want to). I'm a good mum and nothing like the stigma but this felt like the one thing I could prove to the world that I'm not a failure and now it's happened... The thought of being with anyone else makes me want to vomit, I only want him but I just can't do it anymore. I can't live the rest of my stressing about money, about whether I'm being lied to, having my kids watch Daddy yell and scream and sometimes push mummy around. I know I've done the right thing and that I will get through this but I just can't shake feeling like a failure.