Am I stupid for trying for a homebirth second time round?

[justkitty]

Hello ladies,

I am TTC with no.2 - DS is nearly 1 now!

I planned a home birth with no.1 but due to waters breaking and not going into established labour within 24 hours I ended up being induced. It was awful and I ended up with an epidural after they hyperstimulated my uterus. I had no other pain relief before hand because I didn't want my baby to be affected by meds.

I ended up with an episiotomy which they botched so I lost over 2 litres of blood and had two blood transfusions. I spent 3 hours pushing so now have bladder prolapse

I know alot of Doula's and I'd love s homebirth but I can't help feeling like maybe I shouldn't bother. I was so scared and stressed by the hospital that I think my body shut down once it realised it was on a 24 hour clock before having to be induced. It was horrible rushing around to see an accupuncturist to help speed up labour etc.

If I aimed for a MLU then I'd know what I was letting myself in for & no stress maybe? I worry that id have to fight for a HB as they class me as haemorrage even though it was their fault.

I don't regret my epidural as it allowed me to sleep and as I was dilating half cm every 4 hours it was a long labour (that was pre-epidural). Once I have the epi, i relaxed and slept and it all sped up a little.

I also feel a little under pressure to have a homebirth because I didn't manage it last time - to prove to everyone it can be done....

any advice or experience?

 

[aliss]

Well, I had a similar experience to you the 1st time with induction (leaking waters) and episiotomy (but that wasn't botched). I chose home birth the 2nd time and it was a wonderful experience, NOTHING like the 1st.

But the most important birth is one you enjoy and are comfortable with. The pain at home was nothing like hospital induction - I was desperate for the epi with the first but it never even crossed my mind with the 2nd.

 

[Sam Pearson]

At home you won't be on the clock or induced and as you say you didn't have a PPH you have a bleed related to a botched surgical procedure. If it were me I'd not trust the hospital again unless I was in need of desperate medical attention and so long as you are having a healthy pregnancy I"d go for it.

 

[ljo1984]

Your far from mad, I had a similar experience first time round PROM, pitocin, epidural, episiotomy, forceps. Never again do I want that, so HB is the way forward in my eyes. I had to transfer at end with dd2 due to meconium in waters, she was not distressed and I knew it so just did as I was told as oh do!!!! Buttttt I laboured and birthed naturally so was just the wrong setting at the end of the day. Totally go for it, you won't regret it. X

 

[justkitty]

Thanks ladies
I found out I am pregnant yesterday!!!!!

 

[ljo1984]

Awww congratulations!! You can now plan your perfect birth