Anxiety....

[meldmac]

I woke up this morning of all times at 4:30 am. I can't sleep because I'm to anxious about stuff. All I could think of is what If I can't cope when/if the baby is here? My obygn took me off my anxiety meds when I first told him we were trying again after losing Devin as he doesn't want to take any chances at all with this pregnancy and I'm fine with that, but I just don't know if or how I will cope when baby's here. I'm so scared that he wont put me back on them and I really think I'll need them again as I've been having anxiety quite a bit. I'm scared of talking to him in case he thinks I'm not coping now. I am doing ok, and I can handle it for the months while I'm pregnant I just really don't know how I'll be when I'm not pregnant and have a baby to care for. I hate that I have this problem, it always comes out of the blue too and nothing usually needs to bring it on. Ugh I hate this so much. I just wish I could be normal without all this anxiety I know what happened with Devin and being pregnant again doesn't help but I just want one week of not feeling stressed out or anxious. It's also causing more fights with OH which really sucks because he doesn't deserve it. I just get anxious about everything it seems now. blah

 

[Drazic<3]

After what you have been through darling it's so natural. I understand you can't go on the meds but what about councilling or talking therapy? It might really help. Stay strong sweetheart

 

[Hoolie]

It is totally understandable. It's tough and a worrying time being pregnant when you haven't' had a previous bad experience but it's even worse after having experienced a loss. You have been through a parents worst nightmare and it's bound to have taken it's toll on you.

Just take a day at a time and don't look too far ahead. Life always seems much more manageable if you look at it in smaller chunks especially when you're grieving.

Alex

 

[Csunshine013]

Hate that your feeling so bad! I get that way but my Dr has me on Welbutrin ds or something like that and it helps a little bit, if I wasn't taking it I would be a bigger mess than I'm already. Hope it all works out for you! You'll be a great mother there is no doubt in my mind!