Anxious, worried and deafeated!

[Geekylora]

Hello ladies,

I'm really hoping someone can give me some positive energy, because mine packed up and left about a month ago!!

I had a really rough time with my first pregnancy. Both times I went into labor I didn't even realize it! The first time I went into labor at about 32 weeks. I got horribly sick and just kept vomiting. Something just felt WRONG so I went to the ER where they instantly threw me in a hospital bed with an IV, a mag-drip and the whole shabang. They stopped my labor that time because baby was turned the wrong way. I went home after 2 awful weeks spent in ICU, but was back in at just 36 weeks. The only sign that made me aware that I was in labor the second time? A small bloody show in my mucus. I did not even start feeling contractions till I was 6-7cm dilated.

Now I've been told by my midwife this time around that I would go early again. They started suspecting at (what a coincidence) 32weeks when I had some odd mucus appear when I wiped. I think it was part of my mucus plug. It was clear, thick, felt and looked like sticky rubber cement. A fetal fibronectin test was done at 32 weeks and it was negative. An Ultrasound was ordered at 34 weeks and we found out that my Cervix had gone from 35mm to just 10mm and I was dialted to 2cm. I also had some light spotting with a few clots of blood in my mucus. Again my midwife said that everything looked fine and I would definitely be going soon.

Now I'm sitting here at 37 weeks grumbling and feeling uncomfortable, but also feeling INCREDIBLY anxious for labor to begin. I am horrifically worried that I won't even realize it's happening again. I've been having BH contractions every day now. I started nesting a few weeks ago and cleaned the entire house. Every time I go to work I feel incredibly stressed because I'm worrying about having to leave. I'm getting so anxious and worried that I just want to stay home, sit on the sofa and give up.

Please tell me my midwife is right, and I'll be in the delivery room before my due date. (Oct 1st)
Will I really be able to tell I'm in labor this time? Or will I be scrambling to get to the hospital while dilating to 7+cm?
Can I just sleep until the baby gets here?...

 

[maybebaby3]

Unfortunately nobody can predict when baby will arrive! I've had contractions on and off for 3 weeks and am now overdue despite most people saying I'd not make it to my EDD as I'm huge!

 

[BunnyN]

Aw, hugs, the waiting makes everyone anxious and I can see how it's even more stressful for you. It is a good thing that you haven't gone into labour yet though. Some babies born early are fine but there are much greater risks for the baby before 37 weeks and still slightly higher risks until 38 weeks. Babies are not suposed to be here before 38 weeks at the earliest. If you make it until your due date try to see it as an accomplishment! Hugs, I hope the days don't drag too much, you are really close now.

 

[Geekylora]

Thank you for the love ladies.
I know I should be happy that this little guy has stayed in as long as he has. My mom is insisting he will be stubborn and stay in over his due date just to prove my Doctors wrong. If that does happen I think I will be a nervous wreck for sure...