Anybody LTTTC their rainbow?

[heres_hoping]

Hi girls, just looking for someone who understands really. I lost my first son, born at 26+3 and died two days later. He would be two next month. We are on to month 20 of trying again, and I am starting to lose hope I will ever hold my rainbow. It feels like everyone who I met at the same time as my loss, have another baby now, and a good friend is due to give birth to her first child in October, I'd been trying a year already when she announced that she caught on her first try.

I have PCOS, do ovulate but very late and irregularly. I am now on round four of Clomid and have been having a normal cycle with that. I have ovulated every cycle but no BFP yet.

Just feeling very frustrated, very alone and very sad.

 

[.Mrs.B.]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your son, your story is heartbreaking. I can't relate but I didn't want your post to go unanswered.
Also, there is no need for people to tell you that they caught on their first try, it's insensitive, don't be afraid to tell them that it hurts to hear it, a good friend will understand and may think twice before saying things next time.
It's great that your having more regular cycles now, it's only a matter of time, but I know that time, the wait and unknowing is the worst part of ttc.
xxx

 

[barbikins]

Yes I can totally relate. I went into early labor Aug of 2011 at 31 weeks...my daughter passed after 5 days. I've been trying to get pregnant for 19 months. I had a chemical pregnancy in March and that's it.
We tried 5 IUIs and going next week for a second opinion. We plan to save for an IVF but other wise have resorted to trying on our own again. Its been a real nightmare... It's quite stressful.
I've tried so many supplements and acupuncture and herbal concoctions to get pregnant but Nada...