Anyone else feel it will genuinely never happen for them?

[papillio]

Honestly I think everyone gets like that when you've been trying for a while, but if you know there are some problems, even if it's just something relatively small it can make you worry. I've only really known my SIL to have fertility problems and I know after a year and a half she was despairing and neither of them had any problems.

I've only really taking the drugs my gyno suggests (hormone therapy and HRT previously) though atm I'm drug-free and praying it'll work! but my SIL recommended me some amber bracelets which I genuinely think helped (it's supposed to regulate hormones) and my she swore by raspberry leaf tea (homemade) and and agnus castus when she conceived a healthy baby.

Otherwise I think it's just a case of trying to keep your head up and pretend everything is fine, even when it's not

Good luck

 

[Firefly Skies]

So woke up early hours with bloating, cramping a a general 'heaviness' in my stomach. (My telltale AF symptoms). Woke again later an AF is in full swing.
I feel ungrateful because I feel 'meh' about the whole thing. So what if she's here, she'll be here for a few days, ill use the CBFM, then we'll 'try', then ill symptom spot like crazzzzzzy, have BFN after BFN, have another ridiculous long cycle and no happy endings.

Sorry to be so negetive. Hormones and stuff I guess.

AF is always rough when you're so hopeful about becoming a mother. It's for exactly that reason that I'm going to try and take a break from obsessing over my reproductive system next month, and just try to enjoy the summer. It's hard for me to go month after month feeling like I'm doing everything right, only to have AF show up again.

I know for me, CD1 is always the hardest. Every hope I had throughout the month, all gone. And for all of the effort, focus, and emotion I threw into the cycle before it, I get exhausted thinking about doing it all over again. So don't apologize for being negative-- it's an emotional roller coaster when you're TTC!

Even if I do see a BFP, I'm sooo scared that I'll have a miscarriage, and then have to do EVERYTHING over again. All the trying-- months of examining, obsessing, crying, and bouncing between positive and negative.

 

[TickTockBaby]

Firefly your so right. When I was younger I was super responsible about BC and now I'm like, well what was the point in that!
We're just so ready for the next step now, and I feel like it's me letting our future down because I can't do the one thing I'm supposed to be made for.
It's so frustrating and emotionally draining, I'm currently CD4 and I'm exhausted with the thought of the cycle to come e.g. Daily OPK, bd'ing on demand and all for what I fear will just be another disappointing cycle.

I hope your month off recharges your TTC batteries ready for your BFP!

 

[babychickie]

Wow girls, I am nearly in tears. My thoughts are so identical to yours. I was just telling my dh the other day, when i was younger I swore I wouldnt have kids and there was no way, I am giving birth. And i feel like I am now paying for those thoughts...

We want a child more than ever, and for a long time I didnt think i was ready, and then it just clicked - I need to be a mommy! Now I am so depressed, stressed, and upset every month when AF rolls through and i too suspect I might have possible issues, but in the same breath, I am too scared to find out.

We haven't used protection for 5 years, but then again, our sex life throughout those years have not been one for the books, so I suspect our infrequent bd'ing, just didn't help. Now we are going full force, but still BFN's, weird temps, and weird opk's... I just pray everyday this will be my month, and I hope one day it will stick.

I will be going to the Doctor in a few months after charting my temps, so at least I have so more info for him, and I will pray and go from there. I am with you all in support and fx for everyone...

Let us pray we will all be mommies soon

 

[carrie_penny]

I will be honest, YES! I have wanted children all of my life. Seriously, I have wanted 4 children since I was 12 and I married a man who wanted to make that a reality, but he had had a vasectomy after he had his last son.

It has been over a year since the reversal. We just got his "lil swimmers" tested and he came back with super sperm but a very low count.

I have had issues all of my post puberty years. Nothing major, but I have a longer cycle that is painful and puts me out for 3 days a month.

Since I fell in love with my wonderful hubby, I have had it in the back of my mind that kids weren't in the cards for us. It is a really painful thing for me and it hurts DH beyond all reason for me to be upset about something this important.

I am trying to let time take its course and take eacy cycle and day as they come.