Anyone else on antidepressants

[ALISON69]

Hi Ladies,

feeling very hormonal and cant stop crying and if I am not crying I am having terrible thoughts that my children would be better off without me. please dont shoot me down. (i dont want to feel like this)

I am lonely and my husband is never around and always late home, the only time he does come home early is to go and watch bangor racing with his friends so he is home for about 2 secs to drop things off and then out again or he goes and does door work and if he is at home he would rather be on the pc all night or fall asleep on the sofa. he used to txt me all the time telling me he loves me and seeing how I am, but suddenly last month he barely txt me at all now and if he does its to ask me to get or do things for him.

the only day we do get as a family is Sunday and he is permenantley on his mobile phone txting or taking calls all day long, even if we got out for a meal with the whole of his family. ( my family live 100's of miles away) so i have no support. he doesnt even spend any real time with his daughter who is 5 years old.

I have been to my doctors for some antidepressants but she will not prescribe them to me and said she needs to talk to someone first and will ring me back, its been two days and still no phone call and i am now losing the will to live..
I feel like I want to run away and never come back and hoping I will go to sleep and not wake up.

sorry to go on.. I dont know where else to turn, as I am no spring chicken anymore.

 

[roonsma]

Didn't want to read and run. I hope your GP has got back to you. Perhaps trying to speak to your OH about how you're feeling might help?

I'm sorry you're feeling down

 

[septbride]

Hi hon, are you OK? Did your doctor get back to you? This is all fixable. Your doctor should not have fobbed you off like that. I suggest calling another doctor right away, or looking through your insurance info to find a therapist who can meet with you. You're doing the right thing by reaching out for help.

 

[MonyMony]

Alison--I hope you did get see another dr? I think either a regular therapy session or antidepressants can help. There are definitely some that are not so risky during pg. And Mamas need all the support they can get at this time!

Do talk to your OH, and friends or family. Just the simple act of reaching out can lift a burden off your shoulders sometimes. Stay strong and keep us posted!

 

[ALISON69]

Thanks for all your replys, trying very hard to keep positive and doctor did get back to and given me some antidepressants.
But I have been very brave and read up and kept reading the risks and have decided not to take them. But I have them in my bag in case I feel I really need them again.
Hope this makes sense.

 

[septbride]

Sounds like it would be great if you had a therapist you could talk to regularly. A support group could be good too. Are either of those an option?

 

[onceisenough1]

I talked to my doctor about antidepressants and he was willing to give them to me, but when I read up on them I decided I couldn't take the risk. Good luck to you.

 

[ALISON69]

I finally got some tablets from my Doctor after she spoke with the consultants.
But I have decided not to take them and I am trying my hardest to keep positive
I have most days where I burst in to tears and cant see the wood through the tree's.
I just then go home from work and try and soak in the bath for about two hours to try and sort it myself out again, sometimes it works and sometimes it doesnt.
But I will not risk my babies health by taking them.
This was an unplanned pregnancy and I think its because I had to give up so much so quickly, smoking, drinking etc. also didnt realise how lonely my life was until I gave up my smoking habit, as I never smoked in my house and would always stand out side to have one and then end up chatting etc with the neighbours. lol.
hope this all makes sense..
sorry to woffle on