Anyone TTC who has been diagnosed w/ Bipolar Disorder? Want to be buddies?

[reedsgirl1138]

Its nice to see there are ladies who go through the lows and highs as well. I have to admit it has been real rough lately and I know its cause I am off all my meds and work has me majorly stressed which makes my moods more uncontrolable. Jolly I am alot like you and can "feel" the mood starting to shift and I have learned methods of controling it but it is getting harder and harder and my lows are getting longer and harder to come out of. I see a FS next month so I am trying really hard not to take a break from ttc but it may come to that. I really want my baby to have a "natural" start and not on my meds. I figure I wasn't diagnosed til I was 30 and lived most of my adult believeing I was bipolar but scared to get help because I was afraid of what my friends and family would think but I have to admit the year or so I was on my meds was the best I have ever felt! Sorry I ramble on sooo...

 

[molly85]

Hugs.
Reedsgirl sorry are you on or off meds at the moment? As long as they don't harm the baby there is nothing bad about staying on them bb's would refer a stable mum once you have had them than some one so low they struggle to care for them. Really hope you get your ths cycle so you don't have to worry further

 

[reedsgirl1138]

Hey Molly I am off them. Took my last pill in May of 09. I was on abilify. I have 3 kiddos already and had a tubal with my last but had it reversed in April 09. I do okay without the meds I think it is because I am really good at knowing when a "mood" is going to happen and what I need to do (most of the time) to get through it. And I pray ALOT!! My kid help me alot. I want to be "normal" for them if that makes any sense

 

[molly85]

Totally. I know it's totally mad but they in contact with a young carers support group?
Even if they don't "care" the extra support can be good. soz it's the bee in my bonnet that kids should have extra support when a family member is unwell.
Are you Oving etc

 

[jollypop7]

Oh jeez. I can't take Abilify for the life of me! It makes me feel restless but on the flip-side too tired to do anything about it. I was taking Lithium and Lamictal. The Lamictal is just an added bonus for the winter time because I have SAD, too. Bleh. Being off sucks, but at least summer is coming, then I don't have such a hard time with the depression.

 

[molly85]

My mum had lamicatal as well for her epilepse no wander she's never in a real bad moo. lol Abilify is only new over here and I've only ever seen it used in Pyschosis but I rememer reading it had many uses.
I'm sure I get SAD but never been to the doctor about it as I have Hypothyroidism I get the depression that goes with it yucky so hard to fight when your body won't budge and no sun outside

 

[Tanikit]

I seem to get depression in spring and summer for some reason. I'm on Seroquel and Molipaxin but think maybe its time to look at dropping the Molipaxin cause I went a bit manic (the dysphoric kind) recently. At the momet my mood wings run with my cycles - I seem more stable when I am pregnant (at least I hope that is what will happen again this time)

 

[jollypop7]

Ugh, well the witch got me today. In a bad, hard way too. Better luck next month, eh?

 

[momtoboys1]

witch got me too..super sad right now ...try again in April.

 

[reedsgirl1138]

Hey girls sorry the witch got you. I am waiting on her...she sould get her Tuesday. I know there is no way I am preggo as I had a horrible mood swing around O time and my dh and I had a huge fight and I left for a few days...so FX we all get BFPs in APril!!

Does anyone else have the worse mood swing about O time??

 

[NicoleLJ]

I am bi-polar too. Along with Post tramatic stress disorder and agoraphobia. Uggg. I was only on a mood stabalizer but since trying to concieve am not on anything. Before that they kept trying to find meds to help me but have since stopped since they kept causing me to get so manic I would attempt suicide. Sadly most of them had that side affect where it could cause those thoughts and desires. Since being off them for over a year have not had any more problems, thank goodness, in that regaurd.

Defiantely nice to be able to talk to others that are going through similar things. My DH is awsome in that area too. He said the only time he really worries is when I get depressed after a miscarriage. So he just makes sure to spend more time with me and talk more with me.

 

[momtoboys1]

I get very bad mood swings at O time, as well as AF time.
Dh and me usually have our very worst fights then. My Dh has had a really sh*t life because of me over the past 7 years, I am so much better now than I was and I appreciate him still being here with me.
He really has suffered because of me though.

 

[reedsgirl1138]

Momtoboys I know what you mean. But believe it or not my moods are just plain evil at O time. At that makes it pretty hard to get prego!! LOL. I am not sure if it the surge of hormones that put me out of control. I feel it coming on but this is usually the one time I can't control. SO I try to spend that day in bed and sleep it off. I know that is not good but its better than most other options.

Hey NicoleJ thanks for the friend request...I added you.

Girls its really great to have people who understand what we go through.

 

[jollypop7]

Hey girls sorry the witch got you. I am waiting on her...she sould get her Tuesday. I know there is no way I am preggo as I had a horrible mood swing around O time and my dh and I had a huge fight and I left for a few days...so FX we all get BFPs in APril!!

Does anyone else have the worse mood swing about O time??

I sure do! And I get really bad cramping around that time, too. I'm not gonna try next month because I have to see a urologist sp? I have had blood in my urine for the past year and they can't get it figured out. booooo.

 

[jollypop7]

I agree, it's nice to be able to talk about our special problems in TTC. Thanks for commenting, all!

 

[reedsgirl1138]

Thanks for starting the thread Jolly!! I am glad you, did not alot of people have the courage to admit they are bipolar. I have to admit I was at first now I just accept that is a part of me not who I am. I try not to let it rule my life but I have to admit it gets in the way alot. I have also put my dh through alot. He has issues of his own...he has pstd and tbi from his last tour in Iraq but he deals with me and loves me with my highs and lows. I am ready for summer I have more "high" days!!

 

[Tanikit]

I also have severe mood swings based on my hormones - I get very irritable immediately after ovulation (1-2dpo) and usually very depressed (even suicidal) when AF arrives starting the day before and ending a couple days into AF. My husband knows that even on meds I get these swings and so I reall try not to see anyone during those days - no visitors or going to see the inlaws, but it never seems to work out - we ALWAYS land up having someone over and I get so angry - how am I meant to behave properly and pull myself together when the stress is increased at the worst time of month.

Surprisingly enough I went manic at AF last month - its the first time in a very long time that happened - I was so irritable but racing around cleaning the house all day and doing a hige amount of things with my daughter who was quite exhausted afterwards.

I am also dealing with hypothyroidism and diabetes which affects my mood too so its a bit of a balance that I struggle to get right.

 

[jollypop7]

I also have severe mood swings based on my hormones - I get very irritable immediately after ovulation (1-2dpo) and usually very depressed (even suicidal) when AF arrives starting the day before and ending a couple days into AF. My husband knows that even on meds I get these swings and so I reall try not to see anyone during those days - no visitors or going to see the inlaws, but it never seems to work out - we ALWAYS land up having someone over and I get so angry - how am I meant to behave properly and pull myself together when the stress is increased at the worst time of month.

Surprisingly enough I went manic at AF last month - its the first time in a very long time that happened - I was so irritable but racing around cleaning the house all day and doing a hige amount of things with my daughter who was quite exhausted afterwards.

I am also dealing with hypothyroidism and diabetes which affects my mood too so its a bit of a balance that I struggle to get right.

I'm sorry to hear that. But I understand because I've been there. At least you hubby is trying to be supportive. It is rough! And then it sucks because we have such a high rate of Post Partum Depression it's recommended to get right back on your meds, but I really want to breastfeed! I'm not going to be robbed of that experience!

 

[Tanikit]

I was lucky last time - was probably slightly manic after the birth as I barely slept at all and coped ok. Because I wasn't diagnosed then I just kept breastfeeding and breastfed my daughter for 26 months in the end - had to stop when I was diagnosed after bad depression. I would like to breastfeed my next child too, but will take it as it comes - don't want to put me or my child in danger.